woke up wif another disturbing dream.. i was somehow feeling damn scared n terrified in my dream, n i kept shouting for Eddy, but he juz refused to come.. woke up feeling down n sucky..

went to the driving center to help Eddy register for his advanced theory today, but upon reaching there, he told me not to book yet.. grr.. wasted trip.. aniwae after dat i took a bus ard to waste some time, den went to tampines to meet Laibao.

initially we decided upon orchard, but since it was getting late, we went down to bugis instead.. the bus ride was definitely NOT a great one, as the bus was getting more n more stuffy n stinko wif bangladeshi workers.. we alighted at simlim, walked to the nearest burger king n found dat it was full (i insisted on burger king).. den we went to the other burger king n it was packed oso.. wif dis selfish guy whose table was completely empty without a single freakin food/drink n he was juz over there smsing away.. a family there left to allow seats for us, and the mother told me that dat guy has been seating over there for more than half an hour, playing wif his fone n crap.. aniwae we ordered our stuff, n while eating, i was like staring at dat guy n his empty table.. tink he got paiseh n went to buy a drink.. JUST a drink.. fuck..

after dinner we were walking down v8, edge, sembawang records, n some toy store.. more of window shopping, as we juz walked around, but Laibao bought 2 music cds n a vcd.. we decided to leave soon after that. took 51 to geylang, den i went to some stuff before heading home.. along the way home, n even up till now, i'm feeling damn sucky.. cuz i realized i got lied to for dunno how many months liao.. dun try to ask me abt wad happened, cuz i'm sure i'll get upset if i haf to tink abt it again.. right now i juz wanna start a new life, n live the life i wanna live..

comparing myself wif others, i can say that there're some tings abt me which has the potential of bringing me steps above others in many aspects.. some tings others dun haf.. but i can't put them into use, cuz i'm constantly bogged down by my emotions.. i juz can't seem to act rationally.. n i live the life of others, not my own life.. right now i still dunno wad to do.. still dunno how to control my emotions instead of having my emotions control me..

went for lunch wif Eddy at tm macdonalds.. tried out the new chicken fillet burger.. hmm.. tasty!! love it even more than mcchicken.. but i still wished we had eaten at bk though.. but Eddy didn't wan.. aniwae after dat we wen to tampines library, wif the intention of going there to study, but the entire library was packed like stuffed toys in a ufo machine.. stupid sec sku students.. but can't blame dem, cuz the exams are approaching.. almost fainted when we saw the crowd there, so we went back to sku library instead.

tinking dat tings would haf been better at sku library, it wasn't! it was equally packed.. but at least we managed to find a seat for ourselves.. i went to pick up a c++ book n juz read thru it, while Eddy was fast aslp instead of studying.. grr.. but can't blame him.. the library was really a condusive place, for sleeping dat is..

at around evening time Eddy decided to rush home to go for dinner wif his family, so i accompanied him home, den took a bus home.. whoa.. my mum cooked chicken rice, complete wif my favorite brocolli, n corn soup.. i felt like my stomach was going to burst after dinner, n at that very moment, my dad came back wif fried rice.. grrr....

toking abt food.. i've lost control of my diet once again lately.. i've gained a kg since last week.. damn.. not onli is it bad for my napfa, it's also proving to be very taxing on my wallet.. damn.. i REALLY must learn to control my diet now..

quite a normal day today.. went to kaki bukit to collect my camera (finally), den went back tp meet Laibao.. looks like i'm getting familiar wif the warehouse building.. they replaced my camera wif a new one, saying it's beyond repair (yay! dat's wad i was hoping for.. wahahha).. aniwae we went to Changi Airport cuz i was having a crave for popeye wheat biscuits n chicken breast strips once again.. since it was a weekday the place wasn't too pack.. we got a gd place - right in front of the tv, wif abit of sunlight shining in, n the viewing mall was in front of us.. played around wif our bluetooth, n detected quite a number of people near us.. Laibao didn't really like the food there, cuz it's abit too salty n he didn't really like wheat biscuits.. i agree dat it's too salty, but i still love wheat biscuits.. wahhaha..

after lunch/dinner (watever..), we went to the gallery to look ard, but halfway thru i got really tempted to take pics so we went to guardian to get some batteries for my camera, den went back again.. the zooming of my camera is still as sucky as ever.. but better than nothing..

still feeling as restless as ever even after our walk in the airport, we decided to make our way to orchard.. took 36, alighted at plaza singapura n took a walk 1st in carrefoure before strolling down slowly towards orchard.. at some point some gal approached me n was like persuading me to buy some charity ticket n blahblah.. she talked abt how the money was being used to help the family of prisoners n drugs addicts etc when Laibao secretly recorded her whole conversation wif his fone.. n played it back afterwards.. haha.. damn wicked..

takashimaya was getting quite a boring place for us, so we skipped dat place.. instead we visited the Paragon, House of Condom, Singtel shop, Heerens, n Borders.. juz walked ard browsing thru cds n vcds, laughing at the variety of funny objects sold in house of condom, n drooling at Old Chang Kee.. n I seem to have taken a liking for toy stores.. aniwae at Annex I managed to find back the necklace I've lost, but decided to buy it only when I'm richer.. hope there's still more stock by then..

by the time we left i was damn shagged out.. when the bus reached bedok i was like staggering back hunched.. tiring day, but nice day.. got to eat popeyes, c gals (not Laibao's hobby though.. lolx), c cds, n got my camera back.. n was rather happy dat i actually got to chat alot wif Eddy thruout the day (via sms though)..

woke up, played abit of games n called up to chk if my camera's ready for collection... damn.. wasted my time.. no one picked up the call.. spent abt more than half an hour trying to call them up.. poor service..

was quite bored out in the afternoon n since my entire body can't take animore workout today, i decided to go sku look for Laibao.. juz sat ard talking crap n commenting on the IT show poster he's been working on.. haha.. somehow he did someting wrong n the whole side of the poster turned black, n i said 'eh wait!! leave it!! looks cool!'.. now the theory of 'art means anyhow draw a few strokes' proves to be true.. at least in this context.. wahahha.. in the evening we were deciding on where to go, n we suddenly came up wif another crazy idea - go causeway point again.. for dinner only.. haha... (but still can't beat the past where i took a plane to KL juz to eat swensen n took a plane back)..

juz for $5 at the food court, i managed to order a BIG meal wif a bowl of rice, a plate pork cutlet wif veges, n a tub of steamboat soup (complete wif fishballs, cabbage, n fishcake).. now dat's a deal.. after dat we decided to try taosuan again.. lolx.. looks like we're addicted to taosuan.. but the taosuan there sux.. serving was small n the yaozhakuay was so damn hard.. like eating rubber.. n it was ex oso.. $1.60.. so our verdict was.. the one at jurong point was the best, followed by the one at tampines s21.. n the one at causeway point sux..

mouth was still quite itchy after dinner, so i went down to get a fresh blueberry waffer... damn nice.. since it was made on the spot it was superly crispy.. yet not charred.. after dat we took 168 back to bedok, where i walked home while Laibao went back via MRT. my bladder was feeling full at dat time, so i went to a nearby kopitiam for the toilet.. closed... so i walked all the way to the MRT station for the toilet.. closed again.. TOTALLY PWNED!!..

the exams r drawing near for Eddy n Laibao (nxt week onli), n i'm feeling abit kancheong oso.. n partially excited (maybe cuz after exam it's playtime again).. but dat's me.. i always seem to feel wad people ard me r feeling.. but aniwae dis is the last time liao.. bidding farewell to poly life soon.. whether i'll make a comeback in the future is still a question mark.

forgot to write my blog yest cuz was juz too busy dealing wif the memory card in my fone.. i tink i accidentally damaged some of the software inside the card cuz i plugged my hp out from my comp before the data finished copying.. so i had to reformat my memory card n copy all the damn data back.. wad i basically did yest was the norm.. except no more gunbound.. stayed home n wrote a program to transfer all my foto albums into my hp.. den at nite went out for dinner wif my family n dad's fren..

today i went back to sku to meet Eddy for a late lunch.. we had chicken rice at business.. we were really mad.. we asked the auntie to keep reducing the rice until it was only abt 1/3 of the normal portion.. partially cuz we tot we could get more chicken.. but she gave us veges indeed.. haha.. after dat went to play basketball at the tp bball court.. juz went to shoot ard.. basically i was quite on form today.. managed to get alot of balls in, but in the later part somehow my form was gone.. we played for ard an hour, den spend another hour sitting at the sports complex drying ourselves n listening to mp3..

Eddy decided to go parkway burger king to study today, so i juz tagged along to be his waiter.. order food for him, etc.. haha.. i had my dinner there.. today quite troublesome.. cuz i ate beef n so i couldn't share drinks wif Eddy.. instead i got a cup n poured the drink in everytime i wanna drink.. halfway thru, i had done some wrong tings to my memory card again.. n.. i messed up everyting.. dat means no mp3 for me along the way home.. grr.. dis time it was even worse... couldn't even detect the card.. so i had to get my bro to reformat my card for me on his hp instead after i reached home.. aww, crap..

i tink these few days i'm turning back to my usual kaopei self liao.. compared to last week i'm feeling much better.. feel okay.. not depressed animore.. thanks to those who talked to me n left me encouragement on my tagboard.. those who tried to get me out to distract me from my problems, n those who are simply there for me..