Tink I'm feeling abit better today, at least not as depressed as yesterday. But I do need to sort things out on my mind when I have more energy n motivation. This morning, the nitemare about my foolish loyalty eventually hurting me came back again. But after I woke up, I thought about it, n decided dat I'd go on no matter what. Over the past few years, most tings about mi have changed, n that aspect of mine is one of the few tings that remains unchanged in me. Maybe dat's one of the remaining few tings which can remind me I'm still myself.

Laibao wanted to go simlim to get a thumbdrive today, so I decided to go wif him. But cuz I woke up late today n after abit of tu'ing here n there, plus the ezlink queue was so damn long, I was an hour late.. Asked him to go walk around first, cuz I didn't wan him to sit there n wait for me.. Damn.. I've learned my lesson.. Never take 66 from bedok to simlim.. it took more than an hour!

By the time I reached simlim, Laibao already had his eye set on a samsung thumbdrive. He was juz waiting for mi to cum so I could give my opinion. After he got his stuff, I decided to spend some time looking for a camera which could be used with my hp. Either a bluetooth one or an MMC one.

Initially, I had no intention of buying anything. Juz wanted to look around so I could get a glimpse of the price n save up. Those cameras were damn hard to find. In the end, I almost gave up, when I came across this shop selling wad I was looking for. Though I juz wanted to look around, the camera I found was really damn tempting, so Laibao lent me $210 to pay for the camera (thanx Laibao, remind mi hoh!!)..

During lunch with Laibao, I started to fiddle around with the camera. Everyting was better than expected. Discovered it could take video too. We ate an imitation version of scissors hakkanese curry rice. Laibao had to go to work after that, so I sent him to work n took 40 back.

Somehow after getting the camera, my crave for the 5140 fone seemed to have vanished. Haha.. Think it's a good deal loh. After all, what I really want is not the latest phone or technology or wadsoever, but juz a set of equipment to entertain me n let mi take pictures so I can enjoy my camping or sightseeing trips to the max. Since the camera can work together with my phone (via the memory card), there's no need for a camera phone. Plus the quality is at least 4 times better than a hp's. Think now I've got what I want.. Need to control my spendings from now on.. N save up so I can return the $ to Laibao ASAP. I have to promise myself not to buy aniting expensive (at least not for myself) until after my NS. But i still need to find something to waterproof/shockproof my equipment now.

Was woken up early by Eddy today cuz he needed to leave the hse.. Still got faint memories of mi yest nite halfway feeling very cold n snatching the blanket wif Eddy. My right feet was getting slightly better, but my left feet started to ache instead.. Went back to sleep, until around 11.30. did nth much today.. Juz stayed at home n waited for Ray to come, so I could help him with his project. Initially I was to meet him at TP, but someting happened to him there so he wanted to work in my hse instead. Was so sleepy throughout the project. In the evening, went to TJC carnival with Mervyn, whereby there wasn't ani interesting activities. Good thing we managed to sneak in instead of paying $4 for the ticket. On the way home, called Eddy to haf a quick chat.

For some unknown reason, I'm feeling very depressed today, again. Mainly not bcuz of Eddy dis time. Think too many things bothering mi again.. Maybe is becuz heard ppl tok abt NS life hear until depressed.. Or maybe little pieces of my past which brings back pain n sadness? But it feels terrible. I needed someone to talk to but didn't know wad to sae.. Cuz I oso dunno wad I'm feeling.. However, i feel damn tired also. Feel like my life is slowly fading out..

Finally, there is peace in my family for almost a week. Or at least between my sis n mum or sis n bro or sis n me, cuz I actually juz quarrelled with my mum yest in the kitchen, n Eddy also heard the commotion from the living room.

More Limping Horror

Tink I onli slept 2 hours yest nite cuz of a damn mosquito which somehow managed to get into my room. When I woke up, leg still hurts damn bad.. But decided to go big splash cuz 1) i've promised to go 2) i dun wanna miss the fun.

Couldn't really manage to walk, so I took a cab there. In the end, I was the earliest.. wahahha.. Sat at Parkway Mac n waited for the rest. Got to know 2 new ppl, Kaiyong n Edwin. Went to the hawker centre nxt door for breakfast once again.

After my breakfast, we started making our way to big splash. The problem wif my leg sets in after we reached the Amber Hotel bus stop. I was limping.. n limping.. until in the end my leg could barely take it any longer. However, Jackson decided to piggyback me for some distance, despite mi insisting dat I could still walk. Feel so touched.. Thanxx Jackson!.. N feel very bad oso, cuz I noe how heavy I am.. Twice the weight of all the stuff u haf to carry in army! By the time he put me down, my leg could start limping again cuz I tink enuf rest.

At big splash today, there was some sort of event going on, so the pool was COMPLETELY unusable. We went to play the slides first (both the small n big one), n hanged around the "baby" slide watching the events going on. Damn amusing n funny. When it was around 12, we ate our lunch n made the rental for kayaks, den went out to sea to practise our skills.

Travelling around the boat wasn't a big issue, cuz didn't need to use my leg. But I was quite blur today. I really need to apologize apologize because I tink I've made a few blunders which could haf endangered some of them (like my hand slipping off the kayak when trying to do swimmer to kayak rescue). With about an hour left on our rental, Kianseng n Junbing came n requested for us to hand over our kayaks n equipment to them, cuz they were having some shortage of equipment for a course, in exchange for juz paying for 4 kayaks' rental fees. We were quite shagged aniwae, so we decided to make our way to the slides once again. My leg was getting better then, so I at least got to try out the slide once.

after washing up in the late afternoon, my leg seemed to haf got better. we headed down to changi airport once again to haf our dinner. pirated kfc again. my 3-piece chicken meal was reduced to a 2-piece, cuz of the stupid wing. After dinner, we headed for home. I took 36 together wif Jackson to go wif him return his library books, den took 15 n 31 home. Bus fare was quite heavy on mi today, cuz I've forgotten abt my bus concession's expiry. tmr need to go buy again..

Not long after I reached home, Eddy turned up at my doorstep. Our initial plan was to go fishing at ECP, but since I need to go back to sku tmr morning, we went for a movie at Tampines instead. watched Big Fish. It was quite a nice show, abt dis guy who was a storyteller. His son was rather pissed that he didn't really know the father cuz he thought that wad his father told him abt his life was juz a story, cuz it was juz too exaggerating. In the end, he realized that wad his dad said was not far from the truth. He had made a judgement abt his dad being a liar juz becuz his stories were exaggerating, but luckily he managed to discover his mistake juz before his father died.

ok, getting ready to go to bed now (it's 2.40am). Eddy is snoring noisily in the background even as i'm typing now..

My Tendon Problems Are Back.. DAMMIT!

ARGH... I screamed the moment I tried to stand up after getting out of my bed. My inner ankles were hurting like hell, for no apparent reason.. No sprain, no wadsoever injury.. So I guess my tendon problems were back. I had never officially diagnosed it before, so I dun really noe wad it is. But the best guess is arthritis.. It occurs to me once in every few mths, on different parts of my body. My neck, knees, wrists, fingers, ankles, toes, sole. Sometimes lucky can recover within one day, sometimes need 3 to 4 days. And today it happens to be on somewhere between my inner shin n sole (on the right leg). Great.. N dat means I'll have to limp through the day.

Throughout the whole day, I was cursing n swearing quietly to myself.. Had to limp around my house, n sometimes when i accidentally put my right leg down too hard i'll be stunned by the suddenly sharp pain on my sole. Aniwae in the afternoon I decided to go back TP settle some stuff n meet Laibao for lunch.

Outside my house, I can sae dat my limping had attracted alot of attention. Got a grp of sec sku gals staring at mi amusingly like as if I a baby who juz learned walking liddat.. And an auntie who actually OFFERED to help mi up the bus when I had trouble getting up. I almost died of humiliation.. Everytime Hao Gong Ming textbook sae to help auntie but now is auntie helping mi..

Back in TP, I couldn't escape the fate of attracting attention too. Laibao noticed my limping not long after I walked into his lab, n asked wad happened.. N i had to tell the whole story abt dis problem I haf. Guess Eddy didn't bother to notice it. Since Laibao was still busy I went ard 1st. Limped past the cleaner auntie, the security guard, past my lecturers too!

Finally, Laibao was done wif his stuff. We went to Mensa to eat vegetarian. Wanted to order a chicken breast from the western stall but they sae that they no longer sell chicken breast.. damn.. should haf removed it from the menu mah.. so misleading.. Wasn't really full after the vegetarian meal, so I went to buy a sushit.. n a cup of bandung. Aniwae, saw Ray in Mensa too. The moment I 'walked' up to him, 1st thing he asked was "wad happened to ur leg??".. N when I was leaving Mensa, the canteen auntie oso said "ur leg injured izzit? be careful hoh..".. After lunch, was feeling abit sian, so decided to LIMP around bedok reservoir instead of juz seating there. Little did I realize that I've made a decision which I'd regret for the rest of the day.

At Bedok Reservoir, we discovered a weird tree which had SPIKES on its trunk. It looked like the same specie as the surrounding tree, but dunno y got spikes.. Maybe is barnacles.. After walking for abt 10 mins, my legs decided to call it a day. It was getting more n more painful, so we sat on a bench to let my leg rest n we juz play ard wif our ringtones. After Laibao left, I realized that even limping became progressively harder. so, instead of crossing the bridge, i took 15 on the TP side to allow it to go Parkway, loop back to pasir ris, den took 12 home (cuz 12 brings mi to the bus-stop nearest my house). Throughout the bus ride, I suddenly fell into a depressed state again. Still being damn hurt by Eddy's words.. Even more hurting than my leg today.. From the bus stop to my house, my limping became even more exaggerated. Can sae I was even worse than Xie Shaoguang in Golden Pillow..

I heaved a big sigh of relief when I reached home. By then, I already couldn't limp animore without a support. But dammit.. no one was at home, n I had to go boil some water in order to take my medicine wif. dangerous sia.. a baikar trying to boil water alone at home.. reminds me of those tv shows whereby crippled guy tries to boil water, falls over n knock the pot n causes the house to be on fire. gd ting everyting went on smoothly. went to my room to rest until my mum n bro came back.

my mum came back, with LOTS of chicken rice. I ate 2 packets of it.. suddenly haf a craving for chicken rice. i got humiliated again when my bro offered to support mi ard the house.. "i'm NOT crippled yet la (actually, i'm sort of crippled.. onli temporarily.. wahahah)!!". After dinner, I juz sat in my room, brooding, wif minimal movement ard the house. Bathing was a huge problem too.. I almost fell n knocked myself into the pails n basins my mum washes the clothes wif..

right now, the greatest worry is that I wun be able to make it to big splash tmr if my leg doesn't recover in time.. if that happens, i'm going to cry.. n i'll truly curse my tendon problem!

Having Fun at Big Splash

woke up wif a bad stomachache today, so spent quite some time in the toilet before rushing to Parkway Mac to meet Jackson, Weihao n Yankai. Realized I was late, but heng I was not the latest.. hahaha.. went on to the hawker centre nxt door to haf our breakfast n tabao some food for lunch.

happen to meet Eddy on our way to paddle culture. When we reached there, the damn pool was in use so we had to go out to the sea instead. Eddy was coaching a grp of people from some international college who was willing to pay $900 per head for a bundle of 1 star + 2 star course!.. wah liew.. rich kidz man.. Aniwae, out at sea, we were all abit disappointed cuz couldn't get to use the pool. after abit of paddling back n forth n some skill practice, we planned to go back for lunch (which we thought the pool would be available after).

juz before going for lunch, we decided to go try out the HIGH HIGH slides at big splash.. so went to disturb the lifeguard.. haha.. the slides looked like nothing when u look at it from below, but try going up the top, n u'll get wobbly legs before n after the sliding down. WOOHOO.. the speed was so damn fast that we literally FLEW thru the air for abit of distance at each breaker point. never had such excitement for such a long time sia.. once we hit the water, we could feel like as if someone was whacking our balls wif a stick.. I swear i almost wanted to grab my balls like michael jackson.. wahahha.. wah liew.. now can still feel abit of dat feeling.. after going for the high one, we went for the lower one. oso not bad, except it was not as scary as the high one. played abt 2 more times before getting our lunch frm the locker n finding some place to sit down for lunch. didn't feel like eating, as usual.

after lunch, we initially planned to head back to the sea (reluctantly) cuz Juncheng said the pool couldn't be used, but in the end we managed to convince him to allow us to use the pool. HOORAY!! so we brought our kayaks back n practised our skills there, n had quite alot of fun. Weihao most uuhua sia!! $6 learned eskimo rolls n sculling for support n storm roll n high support on the move.. n Jackson was almost getting his hand roll. Yankai deserves a praise also, for his effort in his sculling for support n eskimo roll.. n SUBMARINE.. wahahah.. time passed quite fast cuz we were really enjoying myself. in no time the 4 hours rental was up. we returned our equipment after some delay..

n guess wad's next.. we were playing the smaller slides at the "baby" pool.. haha.. thanks to everyone's creativity n mad ideas, we were doing all sorts of funny n crazy tings, such as pushing one another down, or going down the slope sideways. n walking on the water wif our hands onli.. n seeing who could hold his breath longer.. haha.. can sae dis is one of my happiest days since a long time sia.. after dat, we went back to the high slides, played wif it, n laughed at dis ang moh who was acting like a hero, n dis malay guy who got told off for doing all sorts of Chan-Mali-stunts there. after dat we went back to the small slides for even more fun, wrestling wif each other seeing who can stay at the top, trying to pull one another down by grabbing the leg/hand, etc. Went to bathe at ard 4, but felt so relunctant to leave the slides..

after bathing n settling the payment (Juncheng count wrongly n charged us $20.. wahahahah), we headed down to changi airport for lunch (or dinner). took skytrain to the other terminal, den went to eat some pirated KFC (some Pop-eye chicken or sth like dat). price ard the same as KFC la. after dat, walked ard to see chocolate, n NTUC. throughout, was getting quite interested in their NPCC topics.. cuz was oso learning from their experiences. went to bookstore to browse ard too.. was trying to find "Having a Harder Abs" in the magazine cuz the cover sae got, but couldn't find it... at around 6.30, we left the airport on different buses (I took 36 wif Jackson). Time to go parkway eat Pizza Hut wif Eddy. Along the bus journey, Jackson said someting which I really felt is true sia.. "Dun look back at the past.. Keep looking forward to the future.."

Gabriel n Yiren came along wif Eddy n mi, so tings weren't dat quiet. but dunno y i was so damn quiet throughout dinner. didn't really talked much, onli answered when asked questions. had some baked rice, den went Giant c fish before leaving the place.

Whoa! Wish everyday could be as fun n happy as today. No worries, juz laughter.. I'm sure all of our blogs will feature the same story, onli thru different perspectives. Another memorable day i'll never forget.. we'll be going there again on Thursday, with even more people.. YAY!!!....

Actually wanted to go hiking today, but someone asked mi wanna go fish anot n made mi cancel my plans den last min dun wanna go liao oso nv tell mi.. juz left mi waiting.. was so damn sianz n pissed for the whole of the afternoon until Jackson went play pool wif mi at parkway megapool.. Thanks alot man!.. Played for abt an hour, den we went dwnstairs Mac eat ice cream. Walked to roxy square with jackson, and chatted quite alot along the way. After that, i went across the road to go cut my hair at Katong Mall.

As Ajij (the barber) was cutting my hair, he told mi abt how he juz suddenly managed to quit smoking cuz he got sick of smoking, and etc. Wish my smoker frens can oso quit smoking juz like him sia.. Aniwae, was quite satisfied wif the outcome of the haircut. at least not dat pongpong liao..

Got home, n tried my mum's fried noodles. Click here to see wad punishment I got by complaining dat her noodle was too dry..

A Series of Weird Events

Had a dream last nite abt myself picking up another N-Gage in sku.. woohoo!! den when i was on my way to take bus so I could give it to Jackson (y Jackson? maybe cuz i noe he wans a new fone.. haha), i woke up.. grrrr.. everyting pao tang (ruined) liao.. the dream was EXACTLY like the time whereby I picked up the panasonic fone n passed it to Ray, onli dis time I picked up an N-Gage in TP n decided to pass to Jackson instead.. URGH.. i hate waking up from nice dreams!

Slept REALLY early yest, but today juz couldn't wake up.. Or maybe didn't feel like waking up.. Was supposed to reach Kallang MRT at 9 for the race, but Eddy called at 7.15 n told mi we would meet at 12 instead. I was like "oh okay..", n went back to sleep. At about 9, Eddy called again, n told mi dat the race is cancelled cuz one of our team members was sick. I went "uhh.. ok.." n went back to sleep, until 11.30. Was still so tired den.. I've slept for more than 14 hours! N still so tired.. But I woke up aniwae.. Played some games, n spent the whole damn afternoon trying to write a hp program to repel mosquitoes using ultrasonic waves.. It worked on normal nokia phones, but not on symbian phones (including my ngage!!).. decided to give up n write a version for symbian devices when I haf the time...

In the evening, went to an Indonesian restaurant for buffet with my mum, sis n bro. The food there was nice. First round no need to order - they'd juz serve us with EVERYTHING on the menu, but with onli a small serving of each dish. It was enuf to fill a normal eater, but being heavy eaters, we ordered an entire set of the whole menu again, plus more rice. But i guess dat was abit too much. I went to the toilet wif my bro to "release" abit of the food, waited for our red eyes (due to the "release") to recover, den we decided to go play Para Para n walk ard carrefoure on our own instead of WATCHING my mum shop..

in total, we walked in n out of carrefoure 4 times:
-bought some tempura sushi, den went outside n eat.. den we realized we 4got to buy drinks, so...
-went back n bought 2 bottles of lemon coke, plus 2 tubes of Halls.. den..
-suddenly had craving for cheesecake.. so went back n bought a strawberry cheesecake to share..

ok.. dat was 3 times.. but hang on.. after we came out, we decided to go look for our mum liao, cuz need to hurry her so can reach home in time to watch Waterboys.. n we found out she has reached carrefoure too, onli on the 2nd level.. so.. we went 'grrr' n went up to look for her.. there,
-my bro bought a cd-rw, den we left carrefoure..

dat made it 4 times.. like as if dat wasn't enuf, when we reached the 1st storey, my mum wanted to buy some coffee powder, but after our whining, she decided to start heading home.

took a cab home. reached home juz in time for Waterboys. Anyway, i'm going to tok abt the weird events now..

my bro n his frens always like to go Bedok Jetty dive in n swim in the sea late at nite.. Since his usual hangout there last Sunday, some terrible stuff started to happen:
1) one of them kenna sent to police station yesterday nite, n was accused of arson, when he didn't do aniting..
2) one of their mum juz passed away today, after slipping n falling AT HOME.. severe brain bleeding..
3) 2 of them encountered a ghostly incident on one of the nights recently. they were lost near a clump of bushes.. then they saw 2 openings.. when saw light from one of them, so they went near it.. it was an expressway wif lots of cars n all dat.. so they decided to backtrack.. wait a moment.. i mentioned there were 2 openings rite? the other one was dark, but dat couldn't have been possible becuz it was oso supposed to open to the expressway! n guess wad.. when they backtracked, the other opening was gone! unlikely to be a hallucination, cuz BOTH of them saw it!
4) my bro had lots of weird encounters in sku lately too.. like the teacher's temper abit weird.. lup him juz bcuz he wore ankle socks.. dis one could juz be a coincident though... but who noes.. cuz the other incidents were already frightening enuf! 5) my mum was UNUSUALLY careless n accident-prone lately. normally she's very kiasi, every small detail oso over-exaggerate the safety factor.. but lately, for example today, she actually wanted to change the light bulb with the power still on, but heng i managed to stop her in time!

so, he suspects dat they ran into someting "dirty" out at sea.. aniwae tmr i'm going to investigate dis wif my bro n his frens.. let's c how it'll turn out..