Today Valentine's Day, but i no valentine so sian.. Went Suntec wif an irc fren, who REALLY haf a big appetite. Eat chicken rice n sushi liao still can stuff 4 ham chim peng in sia.. Managed to teach him how to play Para Para.. Hope he'll be a great dancer one day oso.. wahhaha.. Damn suay.. Injured my left wrist badly.. went home at around 7, den at around 9 went out for dinner wif my mum.. Went nearby kopitiam eat, but 2 ppl can eat till $16.. ex sia.. not much for today la.. juz a very sian day..

My Bleak Future

The more I tink abt the future, the more lonely I'll feel. Somehow I still feel so damn insecure. Dunno how many of my close friends will remain close, how many will disappear. N the so-called best friend Eddy juz refuses to give me an assurance that we'll still remain as close as we are now. So damn scared now.. So scared after I come out of NS everyone not close to me liao. Maybe cuz the past still haunts me. The past abt how mi n my close frens drifted apart. N the betrayals n backstabbing. N I dunno if I'll ever get the chance to relive certain gd memories I've had in the past. N to finish some undone business.

Will I ever find a true friend? What will I be working as? How will I be like? Will I ever start my own family? Whenever I ask myself these questions, my mind will go blank. Can't even get the vaguest idea.. Maybe I know the answer deep inside, juz dat I'm not willing to accept dat answer..

Right now, I'm juz waiting in fear n suspense. Waiting for a clue to my future. Waiting for a chance to relive my happy memories.. Waiting for a suitable gal.. Waiting for true friends to come along. But.. There are some words I'll never forget.. "Lose contact den lose contact loh.. I can always get new frens..".. My heart still hurts damn bad n my throat still blocks (dat's when I'm feeling damn sad.. anione experienced dat feeling before?) whenever I tink of dat.. Even right now..

I'll write abt my past when I'm calm enuf to do so..

Went Parkway wif Eddy walk walk at Giant, den went Leisure Park to meet his parents for his bday dinner at some chinese restaurant. Overall food was okay, but the fish sux!! Tasty, but dunno I swallowed how many bones while trying to eat the damn fish.

It was around 9.30 after dinner. Was abt to go arcade play Para Para, but they didn't wanna play ani games so I held back. His dad drove us back to his house. Sat ard, n basically did nth.. Left at around 10.30. 40 came first so I took dat, den changed to 12 again at Katong. Dunno y lately 40 even more frequent than 2 or 67. N lately I oso no mood to walk home from interchange.

Got back my Protrek from the repair shop today oso. Though it's Eddy's bday celebration wif his family today, dunno y I not very happy.. Not becuz didn't enjoy the outing or wad. I oso dunno wad's bugging me..

Open House N Eddy's Advance Bday Celebration

Went TP to chou4 re4 nao4 at the open hse today. Quite interesting, only so damn crowded. Aniwae, I wanted to deposit some money at Tampines so I could draw out an additional $10 from my balance of $12.15, n tragedy struck. I went SOGO dat DBS deposit machine, n found out it was faulty.. grr.. So I went to the POSB one near the MRT station instead. The moment I slot my card in, the FREAKING machine ATE my card! I stormed into the POSB office to lodge a complaint, deposit my cash by hand n made a new ATM card. The moment I stepped out of the office, the bank ppl called n told mi they've managed to retrieve my card.. Grrr..

At nite, I went TM Cafe Cartel for dinner wif Eddy, n to celebrate his bday for him in advance. I finally decided to get him a small slice of Dark Chocolate Fudge cake from there. I secretly placed my order for the cake, n I could imagine the shock on his face when the cake came n I actually thanked the waiter. He tot the waiter sent the cake to the wrong table.. wahahha.. Too bad they dun haf candle.. wasted my $0.50 for buying a lighter earlier. Though it was onli a slice of cake, Eddy couldn't finish it, so I helped him wif it. K la, can c he's quite happy wif the cake.. Heng arrhhh...

After dat, we walked around TM as usual, n I sent him home. Overall quite a tiring but fun day la.. Open House rulez... Poly rulez too...

Others' Comments Abt My Face Peeling

Dunno y I feel like as if I'm on drugs today.. Dat's y my entry today sounds kind of goofy..

Woke up at 9.30 today. Tu abit n was supposed to meet Ray in sku at 10.30 to help him for his java. I reached sku at 10.45 and tot dat I was late, but I was wrong.. Aniwae, today is an entire day of running around the sku..:

1045 - Engineering - Waited for Ray
1115 - Business - Had lunch with Jackson.. Fried chicken breasts again (gdd n cheap...)!! Dunno how Jackson can tahan wifout ani drinks.. wahahha
1150 - Mensa - Dunno Ray run where liao.. Called him n he asked for me to wait for him at Mensa canteen.. However, along the way, met Laibao n Gang so I joined them instead. Halfway, Ray n cumpany arrived n they took the table beside ours. Siuting was laughing till she peng after I showed her an sms from Laibao, regarding the bird flu.. Didn't expect such a big reaction sia.. Here's wad the SMS reads: "Warning from the Health Ministry: To avoid getting birdflu, DO NOT play, hold, kiss or suck a suspected species of bird called KUKU JIAO."
1230 - Reservoir - Laibao wanted to go there walk walk, n feed mosquitoes
1300 - ITAS - Accumpany Laibao there n pass some stuff to Eddy
1315 - Engineering - Went back to look for Ray to help him finish up his stuff.
1545 - ITAS - Looked for Eddy n Laibao n Yongjian, juz to tell them I'm leaving the sku. Didn't manage to find Laibao. Upon entering his lab, I saw Yongjian sleeping like a pig on his desk. Dunno he still breathing anot =P .. The moment I walked near, Valent went "Shhhhhhhhhhhhh........". I was looking at Yongjian's screen n saw Siuting trying DESPERATELY to get his attention on MSN. Should haf sabo'ed him by typing some mushie stuff to Siuting using his MSN.. wahahha.. Aniwae, I left after Valent's last attempt to wake him up failed. Valent: "Eh.. ur fren looking for u la!!!".. Yongjian: "*ssssnnnnoooorrreeee*....."

Alamak.. today my whole face peel until damn jialak due to the sunburn last Sunday.. Let's see wad everyone has to say:

My Mum: "Ur face look like a Persian Cat's face.. The pattern..."
Jackson: "Those tribal red indians whereby they paint strips on their faces"
Ray: "If it's me, I wouldn't even dare to step out of my hse"
Eddy: "Eh.. Ur face got the Chinese word 'Ren (Human)'.. Or is dat 'Da (Big)'??"
Darren: "Ehhhh.. Dun cum near mi.. U've got SARS (how the hell can SARS disfigure a face??)!!"
Laibao: "U look like an animal changing skin leh"
Myself: "I'm shedding my cocoon.."
Eric (bro at home): "Wah liew.. Ur fungi grow until so bad arh???" (Dun curse mi la.. if dat really happens I go tiao lao liao)

Ya, ya.. Go ahead n lauf.. I noe it's funny.. In fact I oso feel like laughing myself.. lolx...

Aniwae, today go sku I already starting to haf holiday mood liao, maybe becuz of Open House.. Somehow I feel dat at heart, I've not really graduated yet. I yearn to go for lectures, do projects, study for tests together n all dat wif my frens.. Haizz.. Another near-impossible dream.. I dun wanna grow up yet.. I dun wanna go NS yet.. I dun wanna go out to work yet..

After leaving sku, accumpanied Ray to take his bike practical4, but left when his turn came.. Went back to Bedok den back to Tampines to look for Laibao. Wanted to go Swensen look for a bday ice-cream cake for Eddy (shhh.. dun tell him.. he doesn't read my blog one so doesn't matter.. wahahah). I go pei Laibao buy his 4D n Toto b4 going Swensen. Dammit. The smallest cake they have, besides the sliced ones, are the Valentine ones. Heart-shaped somemore.. Damn.. No way am I going to get an obiang heart-shaped V'Day cake for his bday.. Wanna get the big bday cake but scared the 2 of us cannot finish.. But I told the lady there I'd go back tomorrow, so I could have more time to decide.

After going Swensen, Laibao decided to start making his way home, cuz he says he has to be home by 7.. So can watch TV..... .. .. So I accumpanied him take 31 to Kallang, den took 80 to his house, changed to 40, dropped at Katong to change 12 cuz 40 takes DAMN long to reach Bedok. Haha.. Tok abt being boliao.. Reached home in time for a nice bah-kuteh meal.. whahaha..

Aniwae, can't wait to celebrate Eddy's bday tmr.. His bday on vday, so he surely has programmes on dat day.. damn.. den fri he's celebrating wif his family.. Though I'm joining his family for the celebration on fri, still wanna celebrate for him elsewhere first...

Aniwae, gd luck for my frens whose term tests are approaching (Eddy, Ray, Jackson, Laibao, YongJian, Cheryl, Siuting, Aaron, Chengsing, Darren)...

The Auntie N the Cockroach

Met Chang Yi at orchard to get some form from her. However, along the way home, I suddenly felt like doing a mini-hike ard my area, so I went home, packed some water, got my due library book, n went out (it was 14:20 then). Actually was supposed to jog but I injured my right thigh yest, so decided to do something less streneous instead.

The moment I got downstairs, bought 4D for my mum 1st. Dunno y I felt like visiting dat tall, hilly stretch of road above Bedok View Secondary. I purposely took the long route there, so I could see more stuff. Took me abt half an hour to get there, but the view was nice la. I was actually ABOVE a sku building.. After I passed thru the entire road, decided to go explore the Eastwood region next.

On the way there, pass by my bro's sec sku. Went to peep ard to c if can spot him, but to no avail la. Upon reaching EastWood, the first impression was dat it's very much like Bukit Timah those long stretches of private housing for the rich. Really RICH sia.. Walked halfway saw an interesting sign hanging on a tree which reads:

"To dog owners and maids. Do not let me catch ur dog shitting or peeing around else I will catch u n force u to eat it all up."

Weird sia.. It was printed n laminated somemore.. Aniwae, I moved on n all of the suddenly found myself at a park next to a BIG canal at tanah merah. Dis muz be the 6-pipe which the anglers were toking abt.. So I walked along the canal, n kept looking into the water to see if got ani fish inside. Ya, got, but rather small.. Kept walked, passed thru a bridge, until I reached a dead end next to a sewage plant. Actually, not dead end la, but it's being blocked by lots of tall grass. Better not take the risk, cuz I was wearing very shabbily n scared got snakes in the grass. At ard 16:30, backtracked to Eastwood Centre, n took 10 to Tampines, den changed 23 to TP.

Back at TP, returned the damn library book. Felt like I could fly sia, cuz my bag was so damn light after returning the books (Kotek gifs u wiiinnnngggsss).. Went to Laibao's lab (his project-mates were eagerly draining all the battery from my HP), den to Eddy's lab. Waited for him to finished his stuff, den went TM wif him to walk walk. After dat, went Paya Lebar to meet Jiaxuan so she could sign some stuff, n den took 40 to Katong to change bus.

The moment I dropped at the bus stop, I found myself in the midst of a voice screaming "ARRRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH".. I tot wad happened, until I saw an auntie hiding behind the rubbish bin n screaming "cockroach!!!!".. Den I saw the cockroach heading towards my direction. Lifted up my feet abit, waited for the cockroach to go under it, n *SPLAT!*.. I had stepped onto the cockroach's damn head, leaving it's legs kicking ard trying to free itself. Got one uncle came along, kicked the cockroach into the drain n the auntie finally came out of hiding, saying 'sorry arh.. cockroach most scary creature. I c everyting not scared but scared of cockroach".. waahhahahah... Finally, took 12 home.

Hoping for Everyone

Today seems to be quite a depressing day for alot of my frens. Dunno y, I feel dat tings seems to be falling apart. Everyone seems to be having their fair share of problems. Emotional problems, financial problems, academic problems.. Maybe it's the stress cuz term test is coming soon? I dunno. I feel so helpless sometimes, dat I can't really help much.. I juz wish there's someting I could do. Sorry to all my frenz. I will be praying hard for all of u.. Let mi noe if I can help in ani way.. I wanna see everyone happy again...

Some Thoughts Abt Friendships

For mi, I noticed I'm not a really good fren in terms of:
-not very supportive at times
-can be irritating at times
-not really gd at cheering ppl up
Let's hope I can change that.. N feedback abt mi as a fren is welcum.

Here's wad a true fren is to me:
-feel very comfortable being wif mi, n i feel comfortable being wif
-looks for mi whenever he/she needs help, n is always willing to help oso
-be honest n frank wif mi.. only time he/she lies is for my own good
-understands n noes mi very well, n i oso understand him/her very well
-able to cheer mi up whenever i feel down, n i can oso manage to cheer him/her up
-never toks behind my back, never betrays nor backstab mi
-makes frens from the heart, not to gain benefits or wad
-willing to accept mi for who i am
-will never heck care mi
-trusts mi 100%, n i trust 100%
-always tells mi abt his/her problems n allows mi to help in whatever way i can
-someone who is always there for me
i hope i can be/am one.. n i hope i can find one soon...

Juz Another Normal Day of Travelling Around

Initially, planned to stay at home to work on my Photo Album program, but Ray called n asked mi to accumpany him for his job interview at Bugis. Went sku to meet Ray n Cheryl, den gelek gelek ard before we left sku. Ray got all-excited abt my ngage (2nd person liao.. 1st was eddy's sis), n played till battery left 3 bars (grr...!!! dun care.. u pay my electric bill dis month.. lolx). However, I couldn't accumpany him back after the interview, cuz had to go meet another fren to pass him something. Along the way, I dropped by my house to collect the item, n decided to leave my earpieces at home so I wouldn't be tempted to finish up the remaining 3 bars.. =|

Aniwae, went to aljunied mac to study wif Eddy in the evening, den accumpany him take bus go orchard to meet his fren. Met Richie (my fren's fren who's a gay.. god dammit..) along the way. He was smoking n cut short hair n was making all sorts of gayish gestures as he spoke.. EWWWWWW...... Aniwae, later on, Laibao dropped mi an sms: "tian ran de shui jing*".. wahhaa.. dat means he's at bugis. Since Eddy was meeting someone else, I decided to join Laibao instead. Walked walked at Bugis a while, den took bus home wif Laibao. Along the way, he was toking abt some pig lady who refused to press '5' for him in the TP lift, n loads of funny stuff. He dropped off before me, so I was left alone on the bus. ARGH.. no mp3... my batt already reached 1 bar!! heng I managed to reach home before it ran out totally..

* btw, for those of u who nv notice, there's a lady at a jewellery stall near bugis village who would sae the words "tian ran de shui jing pai" into a mic whenever u walk past.. for more than 10 years liao.. when I went there wif my mum when I was a kid, I heard her sae dat.. now, in present day, I hear dat too whenever I pass by.. what a stable job... "tian ran de shui jing pai"

Kayaked to Ubin Again

Kayaked to ubin today with Jackson, Yankai, Kimjoo n Weihao. We landed on the northern side of the island, near the NPCC campsite to haf our lunch. Damn waves were so damn choppy dat it almost swept one of the kayaks away from the shore. After lunch, made our way back to Changi Beach while surfing along the way. Back there, practised skills n play play ard. Wah lan.. The sunburn was so damn jialak, my face felt like it was going to melt any time. Aniwae, Jackson was trying to do his deep sea entry by sitting on top of the cockpit, but the kayak lost balance n I was on the other side of the kayak, only to see Jackson's ass landing right in my face. PRRRIIISSSSHHHH!!!! The impact sent mi flying down into the water, plus it stunned mi cuz of the pain caused on my already-burnt face, n I had to take a few secs to recover from the shock. N Kim Joo made tings even more ticklish when he commented "Rou Jiang (squished meat)".. Damn funny.. Lolx..

After the kayaking session, we returned our equipments, bathed, n went for dinner at Tampines Mall with the NPCCs. Double-dinner for some of them, who ate at BOTH the TM food court n BK. Went back to the interchange, planning to take a bus home. Heng I missed 2 buses, cuz I received a call asking mi to go parkway relak, so I took 10 wif Jackson in the end. Did the usual stuff at parkway, n went home. Shagged, n my face hurts... But great day, wif lots of laughters n comedy.