after work, went straight to Sengkang to meet Shaoqi today. we had KFC.. n i ate the shroom burger, despite the warning from my friend dat the sauce in the burger is made of chicken fats.. n plus cheese fries!! yummy.. once in a while nvm.. wahahha.. i paid for the meal, but shaoqi took the notes n changed it wif thousands of coins before handing it to the kfc gal.. so damn paiseh dat i actually apologized to her on his behalf..

after the meal, we thought of going to punggol beach so i bought some popcorn chicken to bring over there to eat. we went to the nearest LRT station to top up my farecard before taking a bus over to punggol. along the way, we talked abt our ambitions, etc.. n i was telling him how i wanna take another course after ns, abt how i wanna make $, etc.

it was past 7 by the time we reached punggol beach. not much ppl there today, as compared to the past. maybe everyone afraid of tsunamis.. onli got a grp of 5 gals who took the same bus wif us. n 2 dogs wrestling wif each other. aniwae, we stayed there for a while. actually i wanted to walk along the beach, but Shaoqi decided to go back cuz he was feeling cold. didn't haf a chance to eat my popcorn chicken there =(.. the bus came the moment we reached the bus stop. had the chicken on the bus.

upon reaching his hse busstop, we bought some ice-cream from the pasak malam there n sat on a bench somewhere while eating the ice-cream, toking abt the past. abt how fun it was, how to get back in contact wif the rest, etc. after a while he went home n i left.

took bus 88 to pasir ris and then 12 back to my hse. encountered sth weird along the way, which i shall not mention here..

Had quite a boring day of work today.. Basically spent my free time tinking of n planning outings to meet up wif my poly frens who i've not seen for quite long.

After work, Titus sent mi home as usual. Ron n Ro came to pick mi up right after my dinner, n we went Marina South to play Ghost Squad.. Didn't manage to complete the 3rd mission, considering the fact that we were playing at quite a high level.. Aearon n i took turns teaming up wif Ro.. N it was fun watching jokers shoot down more hostages than i did.. wahaha..

Being a little out of my mind, i played Para Para at hard mode today.. can remember how my leg was trembling n wobbling like jelly after each song.. but i did manage to complete the game at least..

After the arcade session, Ro the MEEPOK MAN drove us to Bras Basah there to eat MEEPOK n tok abt some creepy stuff along the way.. the meepok not bad, but the gd ting was the hawker was actually very generous wif tings like minced chicken, mushrooms n pig tongue.. chitchatted for quite some time b4 Ro sent mi home.

starting to feel restless today liao... grr.. WHY CAN'T NEW YEAR COME FASTER???

Gaining Weight

Sianzz... I'm putting on weight again.. =( .. Help guyz!! go kayak or hike wif mi..

My Blog - Revived

As some of u might haf known, i was going thru lots of shit lately, n didn't really haf the mood to update my blog or do aniting for dat matter.. wif the help of my gd frens n bros, i'm slowly recovering from the shit.. n now i tink i'm ready to struggle on wif life again.. n continue writing my blog..

like to thank Aearon, Raymond, Gabriel, n Laibao for being behind me all the way no matter how fucked up i am. n those who are patient n concern enuf to tok to me.

Finally!! My Bday Chalet!!

Fri, 22nd Oct 2004:

Nan de can get a day off from work.. so song.. regardless, it was still quite a bz day, with a number of tasks on my To-Do list. Went to simlim to get a new PS/2 controller for Herman, since his old controller spoiled when it was on-loan to me. After that, went to Parco QB for a nice haircut b4 my sis came to pick me up.

Sis drove me to parkway to buy a new cabinet as well as the drinks for the on-coming chalet. got some soya bean n green tea, as well as a pack of Corona n Tiger. The car was fully loaded on the way home, mostly due to the stupid cabinet.

Went home, assembled the cabinet, packed my bag, n tu abit before rushing for time to transport the food n stuff to the chalet.. approaching 10.30pm.. n parents kaopeiing already..

Whoa! finally reached the chalet.. my bro n his frens were there already.. unpacked my stuff n slacked ard till Gary came. Looks like he lost his way n onli reached quite late at ard 1+.. since i brought along Herman's ps2 wif mi, i played abit of FF10 while waiting for him.. n the kidz were fascinated by the game, the aeons, anima, etc.. finally Gary reached.. n had some crazy idea abt going changi village eat n c bapok.. sounds fun aniwae, so my bro n his frens n mi agreed wif it..

Gary n mi ordered wanton mee, n shared a plate of fried wanton, while my bro n his frens ordered chicken rice. Eating there juz reminded me of the days when i ate there wif my kayaking frens.. shiok.. n after dat.. went to c bapok.. got one bapok figure like quite chio n Gary was peering at 'shim', but couldn't see clearly.. n poke his head ard, n even borrowed my glasses.. n the bapok didn't look happy... n when he said 'hey! come here..' he kenna scolded.. "WHAT??! WHAT THE FUCK U WAN??!?".. wahaha.. nv knew bapok so fierce..

aniwae Gary drove us back, n we played some ps2 games till 5+.. n went upstairs to sleep.. my bro n his frens took the soft mattresses, while Gary n mi took the hard mattresses.. he slp look like cat sia.. at around 8+ my fone started ringing n it was Shaoqi calling to tok kok.. n apparently i disturbed Gary's slp.. n he was pissed.. wahahah..

Sat, 23rd Oct 2004:

at around 9, Gary drove us back to changi village for breakfast, drove me back to the chalet, n went home. slowly, everyone went home to rest, n i was the onli one left in the chalet.. nth much to do, so i juz walked around, played some ps2, n listened to some music.. from 11 all the way till 4pm.. finally, the 1st guest came - my aunt n cousin.. she came to help with the food, n i must say tings wouldn't have gone so well without her.. soon after, Sean n one of his frens came.. den Kimhai.. den Gabriel.. n more, n more..........

While going to the clubhouse to buy some snacks, i met Eddy's parents.. woohoo!.. they were trying to find their way to my unit, but somehow got lost. brought 'em back, n soon, at ard 6, dinner was started.

more people than i imagined came - Eddy's parents, my relatives, parents, siblings, Jackson, Yankai, Yanjun, Weihao, Laibao n Yongjian, Weikang n Jackson, Raymond, Gabriel, Kimhai, Sean, Junlei, Weihsien, n later on, Gary came back.. Was damn happy, n appreciate everyone who came.. So for those who came, if u're reading this, I'd like to express a big THANKS for coming!.. Only pity was Eddy didn't manage to turn up cuz he was having field camp.

Aniwae, i was happy to be busy zapping ard, getting drinks for everyone n all dat.. it was getting late n i was abt to cut the cake when i remembered dat Ron n Ro weren't here yet.. i hesitated for awhile, but decided to go for it.. i was abt to light the candles when i remembered that Jackson n the rest had gone to the arcade n i've forgotten to call them back! wahaha.. i onli called them after finish lighting the candles.. so damn funny.. cuz when they came back the candle was half-burned, n i still dilly-dallied on taking pics n all dat.. but in the end managed to blow the candles b4 the candle was completely burned.. phew!

Being an amateur cake-cutter, i ended up having to get my aunt to cut the cake for me.. but it was nice being able to pass pieces of cakes to so many ppl.. at ard 11, most of them had left.. except for gabriel n raymond. we played DDR for a bit, but after a while, someone was approaching the door.. n.. it was Aearon n Ro! woohoo! felt so damn happy to see them, after soon long nv c them liao.. we started to tok cok n play taidee outside, while gabriel n raymond were playing winning 11, n my bro was dunno doing wad.. sitting alone, staring into space wif a can of Tiger. Ron saw it n went 'eh.. ur bro so sard!'.. lolx.. aniwae Ro did a really gd job of helping mi clear the cake.. wahahha

after some time, we decided to go indoor n play winning-11.. but we had onli one controller, so Gabriel came up wif dis mad idea abt playing winning-11 using the DDR mat.. n Gabriel was so damn pro.. can tong so long wif the mat.. haha..

when it was quite late ard 3+, Ron n Ro had to go.. went to see them off, n had a little ride on Ron's bike.. after i went back to the chalet, my bro had invited another group of frens.. Sam, Sam's fatso-lian sister, n the chiobu Stella.. Gabriel n mi had dis idea of turning off the lights, turning on some techno, n dancing in the chalet.. n halfway, dat fatso came up wif lots of negative comments.. n my sis came back.. n we were tulan wif her.. still dare to tok cok abt cockroaches flying when pregnant, etc.. the 4 of us (my sis, gabriel, raymond n mi) kept our belongings in a safe place, n went out for a walk instead.. passed by the beach, golf course. went back to the sofa at the clubhouse to tok cok n jisiao Raymond.. wahahah..

by the time we went back, dat fat ahlian was already snoring like a pig.. we did a little bit of packing up n had a little nap.

Sun, 24th Oct 2004

Woke up at 8, n realized dat it would soon be checkout time. My sister was already up n packing the stuff, so we went to help. meanwhile dat ahlian was upstairs the room, slping like a pig.. n refusing to wake up.. we were already quite pissed wif her for blocking us here n there when we were trying to pack.. but it was soon over.. my sis drove Raymond, Gabriel, my bro n mi out, while my bro's frens went out themselves. dropped Raymond n Gabriel at their houses, n went home.. was quite surprised dat i could still put up wif the past 2 days' lack of slp, n onli slept at 10pm dat nite.

Really loved it.. n hope u guys enjoyed urselves at the chalet!

Life somehow getting monotonous lately.. simply dun haf dat much energy to chiong here n there after work everyday.. n somehow the terms between Eddy n mi has somehow gotten abit bland.. nv meet out or tok as much as before.. well, guess dis is wad he wants.
aniwae, the recent movies kindda suck, with the exception of anaconda. The Terminal isn't really that exciting, n The 3 Extremes isn't that horrific either. remember dat day snuck into the cinema to watch dat lame R21 show which was quite a disappointment.. the show got 3 stories.. the 1st story was abt dis wicked gal who locked her sis up in a box out of jealousy n "accidentally" burned her to death. 2nd story was more lame.. abt dis woman who ate dumplings made from human foetus so she would look younger.. 3rd story, the most lame.. abt dis director who went home, out of a sudden, got some idiot who came n tied him up n chopped off his wife's fingers n threw them into the blender so they couldn't be reattached. hope Resident Evil 2 lives up to its expected standard.
met out wif quite alot of different frens for the past few weeks. movies wif Laibao, funan wif Raymond, movies n food wif Eddy, bugis wif Gary, tampines wif Herman, pool wif Herman, Baoyan n the rest. aniwae, getting psyched over my upcoming 21st bday celebration. that's when i'm going to invite almost every one of my friends along, n gif all of them a deserving buffet treat. hope everyone can come..

on monday, i went to see my specialist for my bones n muscle checkup, n they took my xray n told me to come back in a month's time for the results.. i thought 'oh yeah!!' n the next ting they told me is that they would write me a letter for reporting sick when i get enlisted.. wtf.. i thought they were going to defer my enlistment.. shit.. instead they wanted me to report sick, which is what i dread... i dun wanna go in there, eat n do nothing, n come out fat..

depressed, i tried calling Eddy but he was in a scout meeting.. n wasn't free to go out wif me in the nite.. so i went home n drowned my sorrows in gunbound.. but i was a little comforted when my dad gave me $100+ to spend cuz i was going ns.. i decided to buy 2 more batteries for my hp..

tues, didn't do much until Eddy called me up in the afternoon to ask me out at parkway. we ate some bk, did some shopping for stuff i need to bring into ns, played pool, den my dad called n wanted to bring us out for a feast.. my family + Eddy.. i decided upon marche at suntec.. ate like a glutton, all of us, especially my mum.. when we finished our meals n went out Eddy n i headed to the toilet, to find out that the toilets were lighted out cuz it was quite late (ard 11pm) .. we juz peed in the dark.. wonder how we managed to aim properly.. wahah.. after that my dad drove Eddy n mi to his hse cuz i was going to stay overnite there.

did nothing much.. didn't chat much either.. juz went to slp, but this time both of us slept on the floor together.. i couldn't get to slp until quite late cuz tinking of my ns, so i juz lied on the floor until 5+, den fell aslp after that.. we were both damn active in our slp n kept hitting each other unconsciously.. i got woken up by his hits many times.. n vice versa..

today morning Eddy went for his life saving course while i went home, hoping to catch some rest.. before i left i was given an ang pao by Eddy's parents for my ns.. den Gabriel n Raymond called me out to meet me at parkway. we had lunch, went to c hp, den played pool.. i was so damn sleepy, that i fell aslp in the pool center while waiting for my turn.. literally.. n Raymond had to take over me..

after Gabriel n Raymond left i went to big splash to look for Eddy, cuz he was having his course there. i reached there early n was like following him ard, n he was rather unhappy cuz he felt disturbed.. aniwae after his course we went to mos burger n bk for a snack n chat.. Eddy was actually trying to teach me the proper way of being a gd bro to him.. doh.. cuz lately i realized i'm being quite selfish to him.. n we talked abt it.. but it was quite an emotional conversation.. but in the end i decided to try to change.. we chatted for quite long.. more than an hour.. long time nv chat for so long.. aniwae Eddy had to meet his parents for dinner after that, and that was where trouble came in..

while i was on the way home, Eddy sms'ed me n told me a bad news.. a very very bad news.. cuz i have this small diary containing some of my dark secrets, n i happened to leave it at Eddy's hse.. half of it was written in a language onli i understand, so it wasn't a prob.. but the other half was written in english.. somehow Eddy's parents managed to get their hands on it n they read it.. n found out lots of shocking stuff.. initially it was meant for Eddy to read instead.. but it got left on the table.. n they told Eddy they wanted to tok to me.. i was so damn scared sia.. scared they become scared of me.. but Eddy helped to explain tings a little... let's c how tings will turn out after a few more days..

nothing much today.. went out to parkway to meet Eddy, den went to orcahrd for fish n co.. our meeting started off with a quarrel though.. but managed to get solved.. chatted wif Eddy over the fone after he reached home, den with a fren who's been having some fren problem cuz of a vixen..

today's quite a long day.. went swimming wif Raymond in the early afternoon, den went orchard for a late lunch.. ate at subway.. i ordered the meal n cookies as usual.. though i was full after the meal, i really loved the cookies so much dat i decided to buy more home to eat later on.. so, i ate 3, n bought another 3..

after lunch we went to kinokuniya to look at some comic.. i saw the hellboy comics.. damn ex, $28 for one.. but it was in full color.. aniwae Eddy sms to inform me he's back.. so damn happy.. suddenly my stomach started to ache real bad, so i hate to look for the toilet to shit.. was chatting wif Eddy on the fone n shitting at the same time.. wahahah.. aniwae i shit blood again.. n i felt so damn weak n cold after that.. for the rest of the day..

initially Raymond wanted to go my house to play some games after we left orchard, but Laibao called n asked me if i wanted to go out.. today's his bday, n since so long nv c him aniwae, so i decided to go out with Laibao instead. we decided to watch The Day After Tomorrow.. since Raymond had nothing to do anyway, i asked him to tag along n he was okay wif it. however he went home to watch his su wu kong, while i went home to settle some stuff for Eddy, n wear more clothes so i wouldn't be feeling that cold.

i met Laibao at tampines mall at around 8.30, n he walked around until Raymond reached at 9, juz in time for the show. the plot of the show was quick. the climax was reached early in the show, n it continued until the end. i tink it's so-so only.. not as gd as hellboy or charlie's angel. but the show really set me tinking.. what if the thing really happens in reality.. it would be so damn scary.. haha.. imagination gone wild.. aniwae after the show Raymond n Laibao took mrt home, while i took a bus.. it was juz 11.30 n i'd have a choice of 7 different buses home (10, 18, 28, 31, 38, 67, 69), and some run even till 12.30..

My 1st Motorbike Ride

whoa.. this evening, Aearon (another one of my closest frens) came to fetch me for a ride in his bike.. my 1st time sia.. before that i was scared n excited at the same time.. cuz got new ting to try.. he came to my house downstairs to fetch me.. he thought me how to wear my helmet, how to hold onto the bike while riding, how to board the bike without touching the exhaust, etc..

first he fetched me to look for Albert at his hse downstairs.. i was quite scared actually, cuz was afraid i might lose my balance n fall off. i held on damn tight to the grips, n was like leaning my body forward towards him. i wasn't too scared when moving straight, but scared when the bike is making a turn or moving in a curve. aniwae, we somehow got the wrong place n had to slowly find our way there again by luck.. wahah..

after we reached there we juz sat at the void deck to chat with Albert for a while, until i was getting hungry n both of us were looking for toilet.. Albert had some stuff to settle, so we went on ahead to look for the kopitiam near tp.. the one at block 802.. during the journey there, i was starting to get used to the bike liao.. i juz sat back n leaned backwards, while holding on to the grips..

when we reached the kopitiam, both of us juz made a rush for the toilet.. could tell our bladders were really full from the amount of time we took to empty it.. wahha.. i ordered a plate of mixed grill from tenderfresh n some drinks.. later on, Albert came to join us, n we chatted till ard 10.. time really flew by sia.. cuz long time didn't have such a long chat with Albert.. after dat Albert went home while Aearon fetched me to tampines central to look for Roland, den fetched me home.. somehow on the journey home i juz felt totally adapted to the bike.. my hand wasn't even holding on to the grips any longer.. but overall really enjoyed the ride.. felt like a free visit to escape theme park.. wahahha.. dunno when can get the chance to ride on a motorbike again..

spent the past few nites at Eddy's hse, while going home in the afternoon on sat to get things done. fri nite was so damn funny.. cuz i was having some nitemare n i was screaming n shouting n i woke Eddy up, he juz threw a pillow at me to wake me up from the nitemare.. i juz felt the pillow whacking onto my face n was like 'ouch.. where m i??'..

on sat, i went to look for Eddy at paddle culture cuz he was having an evening class there. Juz stayed in the water relaxing, waited for him, bathed n accompanied him to his grandma's hse. he was having dinner at his grandma's place, n in the meantime i juz went home to soak my dirty clothes.

at around 10 i went back to his hse. Xianming was there too, cuz the next morning we were all going for the bigwalk together (Eddy's sis, sis's bf, mum, dad.. excluding Eddy). Eddy, Xianming n i shared a room, while Eddy's sis went to her parent's room to slp. gd ting i didn't have any nitemare that nite.

the next morning, we woke up at ard 6+ cuz the big walk was starting at 7.30.. was so damn sleepy, cuz i fell asleep onli at 2+ the previous nite. i juz realized i had forgotten to bring my shoes, so i had to borrow a pair from Eddy.. STINKO!! but no choice.. wahhaha..

we took a train from aljunied to kallang, while Eddy stayed home to sleep. the whole damn place was so crowded.. big walk indeed.. or felt more like big squeeze or big push.. the route was kind of boring, but i juz had fun tracking/chasing the rest of them down thru the crowd. onli Eddy's dad n mi brought our phones along, so the rest would need to stick to either of us. i brought my entire backpack along too, cuz i was going to look for Eddy at paddle culture again after the walk. we managed to complete the walk in around an hour's time. we went to grab the goodie bags, n guess wad's inside - cooking oil, multivitamins, toothpaste, energy bar, medicated plaster.. doh.. not too practical when all everyone was hoping for was a bottle of sprite or iced tea..

we took a bus back to aljunied, den Eddy's dad drove us to lion city hotel's mac for breakfast. we chatted for quite a long time during breakfast.. talking abt Gerald n his problems etc.. it's supposed to be their family business, but Eddy has already filled me in enough in the past for me to be able to engage in the conversation.. halfway thru, i left though cuz i was eager to go meet Eddy.. wahhaha..

i reached the beach early, so i juz sat there n tanned myself while waiting for Eddy to be back from his expedition. the tide was rising, so i kept having to move backwards to avoid getting wet.. finally Eddy came back.. after he ended his lesson, we juz stayed in the pool, watching others having lessons n relaxing there, n playing with the water etc. after quite some time we went for our baths, n left big splash, heading down to suntec to meet his family for dinner again.

we went to some restaurant named 'the kuali' at suntec convention centre.. it was his sister's treat.. having international buffet. though the variety wasn't too great, the food was fine n the dessert was excellent. after the dinner Eddy n i went looking for the toilet to shit.. oh man.. we really messed up the place, cuz we were taking the cubicles next to each other n we kept throwing toilet paper at each other while shitting.. felt like a little kid sia.. lolx..

went to tower records after dat to get some stuff, den went back to Eddy's hse.. the 6 of us squeezed into the car - Eddy, his sis, Xianming, his mum n his dad. back at his hse, i had another bath den juz went back to his room to rest. i didn't really do or sae much then, cuz there were some tings on my mind n both of us were quite tired..

dis morning, i sent Eddy off cuz he's going away for 5 days again.. gonna miss him.. aniwae my family's back from Thailand.. which means nagging n quarreling once again.

Living Alone

since my family left for thailand yesterday, the whole house is for me.. i was so damn bloody excited, cuz it's been the first time I've had the house entirely for myself. n they had left lots of frozen food as well as preheatable food in the fridge for me. right after they left, i quickly took the chance to treat myself to a feast.

i took out a packet of frozen fish fingers from the freezer n placed it in my oven. since i wanted a feast, i had to make it look more sumptous.. wahahha.. so i digged the freezer looking for some fries, n i found potato wedges instead. even better.. dumped it into the oven too before turning the oven on. i used 'grill' mode, so the food wun get chao da n the oil will come out.. healthier, of course. i wanted to fry an egg but seems like there's no more egg in the fridge, so i thought it shd be enuf. took out a packet of frozen pea-corn-carrot mix n steamed it in a pot. once everyting was ready, i took an extra-large plate, placed the fish fingers, potato wedges n veges on the plate, den squeezed some mayonise on the small spacing left on the plate. there, i had made myself a plate of fish n chips set. to be more complete, i boiled a can of mushroom cream soup, n made myself some icy guava-aroevera fruit punch using the bottle of concentrate i found in the cupboard. haha.. best meal i've ever had at home. after the feast, washed the dishes n cleared out the trash.

i decided to spend the night with Eddy n stay at his house overnite as well cuz i wanted to spend more time wif him. juz slacked around, watched tv n slept.

when i came back this morning, i took a bath before doing all my laundry. 9 pieces of clothing for me.. i'm a bit sloppy, so i juz dumped everything into a pail, pour in some detergent n water n juz bashed the clothes repeatedly. the thing i dread most abt doing laundry is having to squeeze all the diluted detergent out from the clothes before rinsing them with clean water again, n after that u'll have to squeeze the clothes dry before hanging them. damn.. but hanging them wasn't too much of a problem.

watered the plants n fed the pets before writing this crap. aniwae, i tink i enjoy living alone much more than living wif my family. no nagging, no quarrels, no fights. juz freedom n indulgence. tink i'll rent a flat for myself the moment i finish my ns n get a stable job.

quite a fine week, but i've been suffering from depression again.. wanted to take my pills + alcohol n sleep for good, but i straightened out my thoughts again thanks to Eddy.. he always comes to my rescue sia.. haha.. brotherz forever..

aniwae went swimming with him on tues, den kayaking yest.. nothing special, but i juz enjoy every moment wif him cuz this might be the last week i can spend wif him.. cuz after dat he's bz wif camps n all dat while i might be getting enlisted..

these few days damn bz.. everyday hard to reach home before midnite, so too tired to write blog.. today finally manage to reach home early.. hmm.. a recap of wad i did:

fri: went tp to settle some stuff in the morning, den went amk to send a piece of friggin motherboard for warranty service.. after dat, went to Eddy's hse to put the motherboard there, den went to clementi to meet Eddy for dinner (he juz came back from overseas again.. was dropped off at clementi).. took train to bugis for yoshinoya tempura prawns, den went to his hse relax, tok, n fix up his computers until 12, den took bus home

sat: was literally FORCED to kbox by Gabriel.. i didn't wanna go cuz i'd have no more $ to spend if i spend my $ on kbox.. dammit.. he said 'u come down somerset 1st den we decide'.. the moment i reached there they juz walked on to kbox.. i was so damn pissed... n still quite pissed now.. after that, i met Eddy at his hse nearby for dinner cum supper, den chat n walked ard till quite late..

today: played gunbound in the morning n afternoon, den went to suntec to meet Eddy at ard 5+.. we walked ard, den somehow when we entered carrefoure this man dressed up as a pirate came to us n asked us if we wanna join some treasure hunt crap.. Eddy decided to give it a go.. i wasn't too interested at 1st, but i decided to give it a try since Eddy was going to go for it.. the game went like this.. each of us were given a set of questions, and we had to scout ard carrefoure for the answers, or it could also be iq questions, n return to the base with the answers.. the 1st 5 ppl to return would get a 'prize'. so we came up with a plan.. when we got our questions, we would see whose questions r easier, den we would abandon the harder set n we would split up to look for answers to the easier set.. so we hanged around until the game started, den we went about.. i misread one of the 'headphone' question as 'handphone', den was looking all over for handphones, n couldn't find any.. in the end i checked again, found that I was wrong n quickly went to redeemed my mistake by searching again.. got it right in the end.. but was stumped by the IQ question.. but still managed to solve it on our way back, so we managed to get the prize in the end.. hooray.. n we were the last of the 5.. so damn heng.. so wad we got.. a $10 voucher.. not too bad, considering the fact that we only spent 15 mins in total... 15 mins for $10..

after the hunt, we went down to long john silver for our dinner.. Eddy's treat.. haha.. i went home with him after that, den took bus home..

btw take some time to listen to the background music.. nice song in my opinion..

the past few days nv write blog again cuz my internet was down.. father nv pay fone bill.. but now up again.. so basically wad happened.. yest went orchard walk ard wif Laibao.. went to eat bk n see cds, den suddenly had the intention to go watch van helsing.. it was quite unprepared so we decided to watch today instead, calling Yongjian along..

so today i went parkway in the afternoon to meet Jackson get sth n walk ard.. after dat went Eddy's hse to settle sth with his dad, n had dinner there as well.. den went back cineleisure to watch the show.. not bad, but i still prefer hellboy a thousand times.. tink my favorite character in the show is frankestein.. dun really like van helsing himself.. nor the gal or carl.. after the show my craving for subway cookies got stronger, so i went back to subway, but it was closed.. damn.. so had no choice but to go home..

finally 1 more day before Eddy is back again..

woke up early dis morning to see Eddy off, den went back sku pass Valen some stuff n oso to settle something for Eddy.. after dat went home play gb, n slept.. nth much.. den later on went to c doc abt my shoulder.. she referred me to specialist.. came home, did nth.. bored..

whoa! life has been damn bz for me since Eddy came back on fri, but i'm damn happy.. right after he came back on fri i went to meet him, went to his house for dinner den went out for supper again.. n went home... yesterday (sat) went to haf mother's day dinner wif my mum n sis (lame..), den went to his hse after dat to stay overnite.. we juz stayed in his room meddling wif computers, watching tv, chat, listen music n finally fell asleep.. when we woke up dis morning i literally spent the whole day with him from morning all the way till late in the nite.. went to simlim to get some stuff, den rushed back to his hse, went for a walk at east coast beach, den went to parkway to do some shopping n haf dinner.. n finally supper.. was so damn happy thruout, cuz after a long week, managed to spend quite alot of time with him... he asked me to run some errands for him while he's away.. i feel so damn happy sia.. to be of help to him.. really happy..

during these few days, we've worked together a plan to meet out n spend time during our ns.. i've decided to stay at his hse n my hse alternatively every time i book out.. means one week stay his hse, one week return home, n so on.. i'm kind of looking forward to it also.. but in the meantime, i hope that i can defer my ns once again (due to medical problems) so i can go overseas for a holiday wif him before i go ns..

didn't come home for 3 days cuz went to a chalet.. Laibao's class chalet.. the food was great, cuz someone brought a deep-fryer, n we oso ordered pizza.. wahahha.. we spent our time playing taitee/mahjong, toking crap n tomyum, swimming, playing captain ball, eating, walking along the beach, telling ghost stories, watching tv, n playing hide n seek.. captain ball was not too bad, though tiring.. n my team won the most.. happy sia.. lolx.. there were lots of hermit crabs on the beach at nite, but when we went back the next morning couldn't find any.. den hide n seek was the most fun.. cuz we were supposed to off all the lights n play it in total darkness.. nobody could find me even after 3 rounds cuz i was hiding beside the toilet bowl.. lolx.. den Laibao's was the most funny when he became the catcher.. 4 of them were hiding in the shower n they covered themselves wif a blanket, den when Laibao found them, he pulled on the blanket n somehow accidentally hooked the tap.. needless to sae all 4 of them kenna the water from the shower.. lolx.. i was laughing my head off.. n joel sandwiched himself in between the mattresses, n i was squeezing juz right beside him, n i couldn't control my laughing..

though the activities were fun, i didn't manage to enjoy that much cuz i was still missing Eddy.. the place where he took the ferry was juz nearby, n sometimes i juz stared out to the sea, wondering when he would call back..

went to aearon's hse in the late afternoon today to tok, play computer mahjong, watch tv, eat n etc.. it was quite enjoyable toking to him, especially after so long nv see him.. n his parents almost couldn't recognize me.. lolx.. we went downstairs cuz he wanted to show me his bike.. a black phantom.. nice sia.. wah i see the way he walked i oso feel painful for him man.. his dad fried some noodles for us.. ate, den sat dwn n play games den lie down watch tv.. haha we juz joked n crapped along the way juz like before.. soon after watching incredible tales, he saw me to the bus stop n i headed for home.. really missed the old days sia.. maybe i'm gonna go stay overnite at his hse dis weekend..

damn.. still got 3 days before Eddy cums back for the weekends..

woke up at 6.30 in the morning, without having to press 'snooze' this time.. miracle sia.. maybe cuz subconsciously i knew it was kind of a big day.. cuz i had to see Eddy off at tanah merah ferry terminal.. i gave him a morning call in worry that he might not woke up on time..

took my rod n camera, n also my swiss knife juz in case Eddy needed it.. we met at our usual place at bedok interchange, den rushed to macdonalds for breakfast.. time was rather tight, cuz the bus frequency for 35 is always damn low.. heng i brought the knife.. cuz Eddy realized that he needed it.. as for the fishing rod, he decided to gif it a pass instead.. we saw saini at mac n i accidentally called him by a wrong name, n Eddy keeps suaning me n making me paiseh.. wahhah..

there were still some stuff Eddy needed to get before leaving, so we rushed down to ntuc.. den went to my hse bus stop to take 35 instead so we could buy more time.. we were kind of running late, cuz supposed to reach there at 8.00 n we reached at 8.15.. aniwae, when we reached there, i really felt quite sad haf to part from him for quite some time liao.. took a bus back home, played some games n slept..

woke up in the nite, expecting him to call me.. he did call me earlier on, but not after i woke up.. guess it's cuz of the sucky reception there..

i really miss Eddy alot now.. juz the 1st day.. n i miss him.. hmmzz..

since i've not really written much for quite a long time, i'll write more today..

today went out wif Eddy for the whole day, literally from morning till nite.. n spent quite some quality time with him.. cuz he's going somewhere far for some kayak coaching stuff, n i won't get to see him for about a month starting tomorrow.. first we went to sim lim to purchase some computer stuff he's going to fix up for his uncle.. damn hard to find a good bargain, cuz each shop has its gimmicks n hidden costs.. one shop would sell the processor cheap cheap n sell the motherboard REALLY ex, n one would sell both at a moderately expensive price. after much walking ard n consideration, we decided to get everyting from one shop, in hope that we would get a discount.. but failed.. no discount.. haha.. but we bought the stuff aniwaez, cuz too tired n sian to walk ard animore.. Eddy's parents came n fetched us back to Eddy's place to put the stuff, den we took a bus down to paddle culture..

Eddy settled some of his stuff at paddle culture, n also proved me wrong abt some doubts i've had abt him.. that's our problem though, so i wun write it here.. we strolled along the beach to parkway, where we had our lunch.. i ate the chicken rice at the food court.. really alot of rice for $3.50.. n they gave me chicken drumstick, to my horror.. cuz i forgot to tell them i wan CHICKEN breast.. but since it was too late i decided to shuddup n eat it.. we juz sat there n chitchat after lunch for quite some time.. it was kind of quite an emotional chat, n my tears almost came out so i told Eddy to stop.. soon after that we left the food court n went to play pool with Gengyen n Jackson.. long time nv c them liao.. looks like both haf grown much taller.. n Jackson changed alot.. taller n much skinnier.. n 1st ting he said when he saw me was 'hey u've lost weight'.. well today i kept getting trashed.. played 2 games n could only get 2 balls in total.. really sucked.. but we onli played for a while cuz Eddy's family is meeting us for dinner, n we were running late.

after the game, we rushed down to suntec carrefoure to get some stuff for his trip, den hurried to raffles country club to meet up with Eddy's family.. his mum, dad, sis, sis's bf, grandma n grandpa.. seldom have dinner outside with his grandparents.. had quite a nice dinner at a posh cafe.. n talked alot to them.. after that Eddy's sis n her bf left, n i decided to go home on my own too, cuz it would be too many people squeezing into the car if i had gone home with them. so, Eddy saw me off at the club's entrance n i made my way home.

today's a very fulfiling day, cuz i find that i reached home having more faith in Eddy.. believing that ns wouldn't bring us apart.. cuz thru the conversation i realized that Eddy understands some tings.. he knows that he plays an important role in my life due to my lack of family warmth, n i sort of need him for kinship. n he knows he's the closest person to me.. having came to my hse n stayed overnight more often than anione else, he knows the situation in my home. he knows how torn n cold my family is, he has seen how we fight n quarrel wif his own eyes, etc.. since he knows all this, i'm sure he'll treasure this bond even more.. n i realized that he'd manage to prove me wrong everytime i have doubts about him.. n he always gives in even though i'm at fault.. so i'm gonna trust him even more.. the part that made me emotional.. was when he talked abt one day if we ever haf a major argument or someting.. cuz i was so damn scared when i try to tink of that.. i almost cried.. but i was wearing a cap so i juz hid my face in my cap.. n i told him to stop the topic.. i'm hoping for that not to ever happen.. i hope we won't have ani major arguments or fights in the future, but can't guarantee aniting..

the last paragraph was in a mess cuz i was getting emotional again while typing it.. but now i guess i can set my mind to rest n go to ns in peace.. after i fulfil a few tings more, that is.. for now, i guess i'll miss Eddy until he comes back. i guess i'm starting to really see Eddy as a true fren now.. n i feel quite honored i'm the only one who's going to see Eddy off tomorrow..

so after he leaves.. there're still quite some tings to keep me occupied.. chalet, go accompany Aearon cuz he can't go out, go solo hike, etc.. but time is still going to be slow until he returns..

these few days quite eventful for me.. wednesday went ubin cycle wif Laibao.. but this time we didn't explore those so-called forest area that much, cuz we were juz to lazy to cycle in n uphill. like as if that didn't shag me out enuf, i went back ubin to fish cum camp with Eddy yesterday till today. caught lots of fish n crabs (20+ crabs), but didn't bring them back cuz all the fish were catfish n the crabs were damn small. kind of enjoyed my stay there, but there went LOTS (i mean LOTS) of flying ants there cuz it was rainy n got light there. the ground was literally COVERED with the corpse of those ants.. eww.. right after i reached home, i unpacked my stuff, bathed n hibernated immediately.. couldn't take it animore.. i almost fell asleep while shitting in the toilet.

n tonite even more adventure.. going to explore haunted places with Jinxing n Laibao.

argument again.. no peace again.. shit man.. never-ending story.. everytime i tot there would finally be peace, the arguments come again.. all these stress.. i tink i'm gonna break down soon.. in fact i almost did.. my life is in close to living hell.. fuck it..

tink i'm feeling much better today.. dunno y, but the worries don't seem to get me that much today. aniwae, i woke up quite late, called Shaoqi to haf a quick chat with him den went to play gunbound. today isn't really my day at the game, cuz i kept losing.. haha.. but aniwae i went to eat fish n co with Eddy in the nite. his fish n chips came out REAL fast.. machiam fast food.. den mine came after ard half an hour.. n i consoled myself by saying 'ahh.. gd stuff need to wait one'.. wahhaa..

aniwae, along the way while going home wif Eddy, Jinxing happened to board the bus. so coincidence.. i juz went out wif him yest after not seeing him for 3 years or so, den today c him again. after Eddy alighted, i continued the bus journey wif him, chatting wif him along the way. when reached his place, i took 31 home.

hope tings r changing for the better.. hope it's a permanent change instead of a temporary one.

Life has been damn sucky for me lately.. Feeling down all the way especially after knowing my enlistment date, n still being unable to make any improvement for my napfa. Struggling wif myself mentally n emotionally, n having a warfare going on right in my mind. There are juz some stuff I can't accomplish in time.. N i don't even think i can go into ns with a peaceful mind. Even the tots of suicide crossed my mind, but i've decided to put it off at least while i still haf some time left (don't ever talk to me about this; i won't bother to answer.. i haven made a decision yet anyway). I have never been depressed for this long until i received the letter.. cuz everything seems to be coming to an end. no time.

woke up wif another disturbing dream.. i was somehow feeling damn scared n terrified in my dream, n i kept shouting for Eddy, but he juz refused to come.. woke up feeling down n sucky..

went to the driving center to help Eddy register for his advanced theory today, but upon reaching there, he told me not to book yet.. grr.. wasted trip.. aniwae after dat i took a bus ard to waste some time, den went to tampines to meet Laibao.

initially we decided upon orchard, but since it was getting late, we went down to bugis instead.. the bus ride was definitely NOT a great one, as the bus was getting more n more stuffy n stinko wif bangladeshi workers.. we alighted at simlim, walked to the nearest burger king n found dat it was full (i insisted on burger king).. den we went to the other burger king n it was packed oso.. wif dis selfish guy whose table was completely empty without a single freakin food/drink n he was juz over there smsing away.. a family there left to allow seats for us, and the mother told me that dat guy has been seating over there for more than half an hour, playing wif his fone n crap.. aniwae we ordered our stuff, n while eating, i was like staring at dat guy n his empty table.. tink he got paiseh n went to buy a drink.. JUST a drink.. fuck..

after dinner we were walking down v8, edge, sembawang records, n some toy store.. more of window shopping, as we juz walked around, but Laibao bought 2 music cds n a vcd.. we decided to leave soon after that. took 51 to geylang, den i went to some stuff before heading home.. along the way home, n even up till now, i'm feeling damn sucky.. cuz i realized i got lied to for dunno how many months liao.. dun try to ask me abt wad happened, cuz i'm sure i'll get upset if i haf to tink abt it again.. right now i juz wanna start a new life, n live the life i wanna live..

comparing myself wif others, i can say that there're some tings abt me which has the potential of bringing me steps above others in many aspects.. some tings others dun haf.. but i can't put them into use, cuz i'm constantly bogged down by my emotions.. i juz can't seem to act rationally.. n i live the life of others, not my own life.. right now i still dunno wad to do.. still dunno how to control my emotions instead of having my emotions control me..

went for lunch wif Eddy at tm macdonalds.. tried out the new chicken fillet burger.. hmm.. tasty!! love it even more than mcchicken.. but i still wished we had eaten at bk though.. but Eddy didn't wan.. aniwae after dat we wen to tampines library, wif the intention of going there to study, but the entire library was packed like stuffed toys in a ufo machine.. stupid sec sku students.. but can't blame dem, cuz the exams are approaching.. almost fainted when we saw the crowd there, so we went back to sku library instead.

tinking dat tings would haf been better at sku library, it wasn't! it was equally packed.. but at least we managed to find a seat for ourselves.. i went to pick up a c++ book n juz read thru it, while Eddy was fast aslp instead of studying.. grr.. but can't blame him.. the library was really a condusive place, for sleeping dat is..

at around evening time Eddy decided to rush home to go for dinner wif his family, so i accompanied him home, den took a bus home.. whoa.. my mum cooked chicken rice, complete wif my favorite brocolli, n corn soup.. i felt like my stomach was going to burst after dinner, n at that very moment, my dad came back wif fried rice.. grrr....

toking abt food.. i've lost control of my diet once again lately.. i've gained a kg since last week.. damn.. not onli is it bad for my napfa, it's also proving to be very taxing on my wallet.. damn.. i REALLY must learn to control my diet now..

quite a normal day today.. went to kaki bukit to collect my camera (finally), den went back tp meet Laibao.. looks like i'm getting familiar wif the warehouse building.. they replaced my camera wif a new one, saying it's beyond repair (yay! dat's wad i was hoping for.. wahahha).. aniwae we went to Changi Airport cuz i was having a crave for popeye wheat biscuits n chicken breast strips once again.. since it was a weekday the place wasn't too pack.. we got a gd place - right in front of the tv, wif abit of sunlight shining in, n the viewing mall was in front of us.. played around wif our bluetooth, n detected quite a number of people near us.. Laibao didn't really like the food there, cuz it's abit too salty n he didn't really like wheat biscuits.. i agree dat it's too salty, but i still love wheat biscuits.. wahhaha..

after lunch/dinner (watever..), we went to the gallery to look ard, but halfway thru i got really tempted to take pics so we went to guardian to get some batteries for my camera, den went back again.. the zooming of my camera is still as sucky as ever.. but better than nothing..

still feeling as restless as ever even after our walk in the airport, we decided to make our way to orchard.. took 36, alighted at plaza singapura n took a walk 1st in carrefoure before strolling down slowly towards orchard.. at some point some gal approached me n was like persuading me to buy some charity ticket n blahblah.. she talked abt how the money was being used to help the family of prisoners n drugs addicts etc when Laibao secretly recorded her whole conversation wif his fone.. n played it back afterwards.. haha.. damn wicked..

takashimaya was getting quite a boring place for us, so we skipped dat place.. instead we visited the Paragon, House of Condom, Singtel shop, Heerens, n Borders.. juz walked ard browsing thru cds n vcds, laughing at the variety of funny objects sold in house of condom, n drooling at Old Chang Kee.. n I seem to have taken a liking for toy stores.. aniwae at Annex I managed to find back the necklace I've lost, but decided to buy it only when I'm richer.. hope there's still more stock by then..

by the time we left i was damn shagged out.. when the bus reached bedok i was like staggering back hunched.. tiring day, but nice day.. got to eat popeyes, c gals (not Laibao's hobby though.. lolx), c cds, n got my camera back.. n was rather happy dat i actually got to chat alot wif Eddy thruout the day (via sms though)..

woke up, played abit of games n called up to chk if my camera's ready for collection... damn.. wasted my time.. no one picked up the call.. spent abt more than half an hour trying to call them up.. poor service..

was quite bored out in the afternoon n since my entire body can't take animore workout today, i decided to go sku look for Laibao.. juz sat ard talking crap n commenting on the IT show poster he's been working on.. haha.. somehow he did someting wrong n the whole side of the poster turned black, n i said 'eh wait!! leave it!! looks cool!'.. now the theory of 'art means anyhow draw a few strokes' proves to be true.. at least in this context.. wahahha.. in the evening we were deciding on where to go, n we suddenly came up wif another crazy idea - go causeway point again.. for dinner only.. haha... (but still can't beat the past where i took a plane to KL juz to eat swensen n took a plane back)..

juz for $5 at the food court, i managed to order a BIG meal wif a bowl of rice, a plate pork cutlet wif veges, n a tub of steamboat soup (complete wif fishballs, cabbage, n fishcake).. now dat's a deal.. after dat we decided to try taosuan again.. lolx.. looks like we're addicted to taosuan.. but the taosuan there sux.. serving was small n the yaozhakuay was so damn hard.. like eating rubber.. n it was ex oso.. $1.60.. so our verdict was.. the one at jurong point was the best, followed by the one at tampines s21.. n the one at causeway point sux..

mouth was still quite itchy after dinner, so i went down to get a fresh blueberry waffer... damn nice.. since it was made on the spot it was superly crispy.. yet not charred.. after dat we took 168 back to bedok, where i walked home while Laibao went back via MRT. my bladder was feeling full at dat time, so i went to a nearby kopitiam for the toilet.. closed... so i walked all the way to the MRT station for the toilet.. closed again.. TOTALLY PWNED!!..

the exams r drawing near for Eddy n Laibao (nxt week onli), n i'm feeling abit kancheong oso.. n partially excited (maybe cuz after exam it's playtime again).. but dat's me.. i always seem to feel wad people ard me r feeling.. but aniwae dis is the last time liao.. bidding farewell to poly life soon.. whether i'll make a comeback in the future is still a question mark.

forgot to write my blog yest cuz was juz too busy dealing wif the memory card in my fone.. i tink i accidentally damaged some of the software inside the card cuz i plugged my hp out from my comp before the data finished copying.. so i had to reformat my memory card n copy all the damn data back.. wad i basically did yest was the norm.. except no more gunbound.. stayed home n wrote a program to transfer all my foto albums into my hp.. den at nite went out for dinner wif my family n dad's fren..

today i went back to sku to meet Eddy for a late lunch.. we had chicken rice at business.. we were really mad.. we asked the auntie to keep reducing the rice until it was only abt 1/3 of the normal portion.. partially cuz we tot we could get more chicken.. but she gave us veges indeed.. haha.. after dat went to play basketball at the tp bball court.. juz went to shoot ard.. basically i was quite on form today.. managed to get alot of balls in, but in the later part somehow my form was gone.. we played for ard an hour, den spend another hour sitting at the sports complex drying ourselves n listening to mp3..

Eddy decided to go parkway burger king to study today, so i juz tagged along to be his waiter.. order food for him, etc.. haha.. i had my dinner there.. today quite troublesome.. cuz i ate beef n so i couldn't share drinks wif Eddy.. instead i got a cup n poured the drink in everytime i wanna drink.. halfway thru, i had done some wrong tings to my memory card again.. n.. i messed up everyting.. dat means no mp3 for me along the way home.. grr.. dis time it was even worse... couldn't even detect the card.. so i had to get my bro to reformat my card for me on his hp instead after i reached home.. aww, crap..

i tink these few days i'm turning back to my usual kaopei self liao.. compared to last week i'm feeling much better.. feel okay.. not depressed animore.. thanks to those who talked to me n left me encouragement on my tagboard.. those who tried to get me out to distract me from my problems, n those who are simply there for me..

went back changi sea sports club to kayak wif Zhihong today.. he was early n i was late.. dat made me double-times late.. felt so damn bad when i reached there n saw him sitting there in the hot weather waiting for me... didn't do much today.. juz went to chek jawa n back, den slacked around.. beached up damn early at around 3.15.. cuz both of us were damn tired out by the sun.. after dat went to dabao some choon huat chicken rice n subway cookies home..

let's c.. today i'll juz list out some small little satiric facts i've noticed thruout my existance.. read n c how accurate i am..

- on buses or narrow walkways, more females block the way than males usually do.. wif malay aunties being the top culprits..
- fat gals are mostly very gossipish n love to criticize others or talk behind others' backs.. n r the number 2 culprits of blocking people's way (i dun wish to stereotype, but this is proving itself to be too true.. )
- so-called educated women get more arrogant/unreasonable as they age
- so-called educated people complain more than normal people - uncles who normally hang out at coffeeshops r mostly showoffs n r superly afraid of losing face
- most indian-nationals who come to singapore to do office work r usually very proud n arrogant
- jc ppl r usually more ambitious n materialistic than poly/ite people
- people who loves to fake a foreign slang/accent r usually very self-centered n egoistic
- people who loves to fake a foreign slang/accent loves to be sarcastic too
- middle-aged people who speak english at home r usually very calculative

woke up today, played abit of gunbound n went to sengkang to meet Laibao.. cuz we didn't noe where we wanna go yet.. i bought a mr bean pancake n soya bean n old chang kee currypuff n carrot cake to eat on the bus for lunch.. we headed down to clementi, den suddenly somehow got the idea of going to causeway point for a movie, so we took a bus all the way to causeway point..

it was already quite late then, but there was still 1 hr left after we bought the tickets to Hellboy.. went c hp, n i went to those fashion shops to c if i can buy back my lost necklace (the one looks like a flame wif a lightning bolt in the middle).. no luck.. couldn't find it aniwhere.. we went down to kfc for dinner before heading off to the cinema.. long time nv try the cheese fries liao..

thanxx to my stupid idea of taking the cargo lift, we got lost n had to backtrack our way to take another lift instead.. missed the show by a few mins.. but aniwae it's a nice show.. i like it even better than charlie's angel full throttle.. it's abt dis half-human half-demon guy who was raised by a gd guy n so he's a gd person.. fighting monsters n all dat in some paranormal investigation unit.. along wif a psychic fish-man n a team of humans.. n he's in love wif this gal who can control blue fire.. in the end some stupid bad guy wanted him to unlock some gate to release destruction onto the world.. blahblah.. at 1st he agreed cuz he was threatened, but in the end he resisted after remembering his father who juz got killed by the bad guys.. overall a cool action show, wif a pinch of humor n emotions in between..

after the show we went back to woodlands interchange to take 168 back to bedok.. den there was this 168 which looks like it was going to pick up passengers, so we ran n chased after it as fast as we could.. here's the funny part.. i accidentally bumped into Laibao as i ran, bounced backwards, n fell flat on the ground.. a few malay woman saw it n were making noises ("oooowww...").. but i jumped up quickly n continue chasing.. in the end we found out dat the bus wasn't picking up passengers.. grrr.. wasted our energy running.. waited for quite some time before the damn bus came..

played abit of gunbound after reaching home, but i guess i wouldn't be playing that often from now on.. getting sick of it liao...

today's quite a long day.. first of all, brought my ngage to nokia care parkway for software upgrade.. the guy serving me looks freakingly identical to Jianxiang (one of my poly frens).. after leaving my hp there, i took my camera to kaki bukit to service.. it was in some sort of warehouse building (gordon warehouse.. the one wif the big jap beer ad above)..

the warehouse building was so damn complicated... there wasn't any common lobby or receptionist on the 1st floor.. all were either offices or storerooms.. n i was figuring out how to get to the 2nd storey.. gosh.. the staircases are actually located at the BACK of the building (either the staircases or the bus-stop).. i couldn't haf found it if i hadn't done a round-about around the building.. upon reaching the 2nd floor, i was even more baffled.. storerooms again.. n i had a hell of a time finding my destination.. worst of all i didn't even have my hp wif me, cuz it's at nokia care.. oh well.. in the end managed to find it.. tok abt lousy warranty service (at least compared to nokia).. they actually needed days to find out wad's wrong, so i haf to go back n collect it next tues instead..

after the hellish time at kaki bukit (partially becuz i hate industrial areas), i wasted some time at bedok interchange drinking mr bean n walking ard by myself.. cuz there was still some time left before i could collect my fone..

after collecting my fone, i almost had a shock of my life.. when my memory card was slotted in, the fone displayed an error n refused to start.. "AppMain closed." wth.. the lady there told me they have to format my memory card, but i said i'd go home n try 1st.. upon reaching home, i tried, n phew.. it was working.. my data is still intact..

at night, went back to parkway to meet Eddy for dinner.. right after we set the time Laibao sms'ed me n asked me if i wanted to go for dinner also.. but i decided to go wif Eddy.. basically had mos burger, den after that went bk for some onion rings.. i was still okay then, still could talk abit.. but still very troubled.. that i almost left my bag behind when leaving.. alone the way home wif Eddy, i couldn't talk again.. so i figured i'd be alrite as long as there's something to distract me.. like running errands, eating, or playing gb..

while i can still type now, i'll gif a review abt the ngage.. not dat i wanna help nokia advertise, but overall i tink it's a great fone after using it for ard 2 months now..

advantages:
-cheap...
-flexible, cuz it's running on symbian os
-useful.. i'll go into depths on my personal usage later
-built-in speaker is the best-quality n loudest, among the fones i've compared it wif (6600, 6230)
-has a usb port
-big screen
-can put mp3s n wav files as ringtones
-weather-resistance.. it may not be as resistant as my previous N5100, but turn it over n it's 95% protected against raindrops..
-the storage space is virtually unlimited since u can use memory cards..
-juz like a computer, u can run multiple applications at once, while keeping some running in the background.. there's even a task-manager (like ctrl-alt-delete in windows) where u can switch between applications n close them if there's a need to..

disadvantages:
-hard to use wif one-hand.. though u can actually master it..
-it does not have a built-in camera, but u can actually use it in conjunction wif bluetooth or mmc cameras.. i'm using mine wif an mmc camera (cuz cheaper n easier to find), n it works well.. i can take pics n mms instantly.. n trust me, u'll get much better resolution than using camera fones..
-bulky n heavy.. probably not a problem for guys
-sidetalking.. u actually haf to hold the fone by the side when making a call..
-battery-consumption.. the fone's supposed to be made for games, but playing games (especially fifa) will definitely drain ur battery flat in less than an hour.. under normal usage the battery life seems normal
-can be abit slow, especially when loading (not running) java applications n the mp3 player
-no asian languages supported

alrite.. the greatest advantage of the n-gage is it's usefulness.. tink the siemens sx1 (my dream fone) is the only fone which can beat ngage (cuz got camera).. so this is how i use my ngage:

-talking, sms, mms, gprs, phonebook, calculator, alarm clock, notebook, calendar, currency converter, clock.. ahh.. normal..
-web-browsing (real html webpages), msn, icq, email...
-MP3 player and radio.. the main reason y i bought ngage.. advantage over real mp3 player or fm receiver is that it can actually blast out the music (esp. in beaches/bbqs).. n Eddy even dares to blast it out on the bus.. the mp3 player in ngage takes some time to load, however.. so it'd be wiser to keep it running in the background rather than exiting it completely (takes little/no battery power..)..
-torchlight, via the Torch software..
-GPS (global positioning system, for tracking ur current location).. via the miniGPS software..
-portable movie player.. though abit small, but i've actually watched band of brothers on my ngage while on the bus.. abit battery-consuming though..
-answering machine.. i can set it to auto-reply ppl via sms who call/sms me when i'm not around
-games.. but very seldom now.. cuz i got sick of those games n it drains my battery.. waiting for ashen/worms/the sims to be released..
-development platform.. using it to test out java/symbian programs which i've written
-junctioning it wif a bluetooth/mmc camera..
-portable disk drive/card reader.. i use this function heavily to transfer data between home n sku.. n u dun even need ani software or drivers
-mosquito repellant, via the anti-mosquito software which generates ultrasonic waves using the speaker..
-a gameboy n nintendo emulator.. i was shocked to see for myself that ngage is powerful enough to emulate these devices..
-portable foto album.. where i can store n look at precious pics whenever i go..
-voice recorder.. i use this mostly for pranks, n to record my mum kpkb... n it can even record/playback to ppl who are on the other line..
-moon analyzer.. i can actually see the phase of the moon on a given day via the uSolun software..
-solar compass via the xT-Compass software, though i rely on my watch more for compass..

bottom line is.. if u wan a fone which is packed wif features, n can't afford siemens sx1 or N6600, get an ngage.. but still.. the fact that u can use ngage as a portable-hard drive really beats all other fones flat..

yest n today didn't do aniting.. juz stay at hm to rot n distract myself from my problems by playing gunbound.. but thanx, i do feel a little better today.. actually wanted to go service my camera today but couldn't find the warranty card.. finally found it very late.. but i promise i'll write more when i get better.. thanx everyone for ur care n support..

sorry i didn't update my blog yest cuz i was bz at Eddy's hse helping out wif his prj.. i guess it would be the very last time i'll every step into his hse liao.. cuz.. dun tok abt future.. i haf no future liao.. aniwae, couldn't slp until abt 5 den woke up at 8.30...

went to sku, den met Laibao to go west coast park to walk.. exhausted ourselves at the adventure park, den after the whole ting we went jurong point for lunch n went to nokia care to enquire abt some problems wif his new phone.. we didn't need to queue cuz i tink we juz barged into the place n the lady there was worried we might gif problems.. but actually no.. we juz wanted to see wad's the latest firmware version for the fone.. in the end they din manage to fix the damn problem, n we left the place n went home..

ns prob.. family prob.. physical prob.. dun tink i can take it animore..

suck day.. real sucky day.. i juz received my ns enlistment letter.. wad i was most interested abt is whether i could go in wif Eddy.. the result was no.. we r going in on different dates, to different schools... there's still a last chance we might be posted together after we send in our napfa results, but chances are very slim.. weird huh.. i'm wishing for some tings which r almost impossible.. pray hard for me.. i noe all of u will be tinking 'not together then not together la..', but it's really important for me.. i haf a reason.. so.. i'm counting on my last hope......

so wad i did today was go out for dinner wif Raymond.. wanted to go chompchomp but lost our way in hougang so took 27 to airport instead.. i was so fucking depressed thruout.. wanted to go to the staff canteen but lost our way again.. in the end we went to popeyes..

sian day.. didn't go sku cuz lazy.. but met Laibao at Toa Payoh in the evening to go get his 6230.. the stocks haven arrived there yet, so dat guy asked if we would wait till tomorrow to get it.. we decided to do sth crazy, so we asked the guy if we could pay 1st den go to the head office (at penisula shopping centre) to collect.. he was damn shocked upon hearing dat, but gave the go.. so we took a bus all the way to city hall.. finally, Laibao got wad he's been waiting for months.. haha.. nice fone.. nice interface, n mp3 player is even faster than ngage's in terms of loading time, though screen is a little small.. n camera is clear.. $778 well spent..

woke up n tu abit b4 going off to sku.. go there n helped to solve Valen's bugs.. in the nite we went up to the rooftop.. daring act.. haha.. the water tanks were totally dark, n luckily i borrowed Eddy's fone (the one wif torchlight) to go thru dat area.. Laibao n mi left sku at ard 8.30, den headed down to toa payoh cuz Laibao's long-awaited N6230 is out liao.. we went there drink mr bean tao suan n looked ard.. got a shop sell cheap but out of stock.. after all the shops closed we decided to leave.. Laibao went home n i went to Yida's hse get sth from him..

today quite a happening day.. or nite.. day was ok.. did some restoration on my comp n learned how to program symbian.. den went to sku library to meet Eddy to help him wif some of his coding stuff.. when we were done, i looked outside the window n noticed it was already nitetime!! we went back to lab, den left at ard 9.30..

we went to bedok long john silver for dinner, but left wif only 2 cups of free drinks in the end.. wad happened?? haha.. cuz.. we actually ordered 2 combo meal 1.. den the order took so damn long we went to the counter to ask if it was ready.. the staff was quite rude n ignored mi so Eddy got pissed n said dat we were in a hurry n we couldn't wait so he demanded for a refund.. n they refunded us, but we had already almost finished the drinks.. wahahha.. after dat we went hawker centre instead n feasted on satay n some other food using the refund..

interesting happening.. at some bus stop nearing Eddy's hse, we saw lots of police cars n an ambulance.. we, being the big kaypohs, decided to alight at dat stop to take a look.. we saw a man, face n body covered wif blood, but still conscious.. apparently a fight had broken out earlier on.. tink it's probably a bottle fight..

wad a day...

another normal day.. woke up, did abit of restoration on my comp, den went sku.. went for lunch wif Eddy, den went back to Laibao's lab to sit ard n tok cok.. waited for Eddy to go home den went home wif him.. along the way we decided to drop by Ho Kee Pau for a quick snack.. going to continue restoration now.. my comp feels so clean now.. haha..

woke up n went to sku, but only for a while den left liao.. went for lunch wif Laibao at the S21 near tampines library.. den went to see hp.. went home soon after, n rested n played gunbound.. very sian day.. n my mum juz couldn't stop nagging n being irritating until i got extremely pissed wif her.. aniwae going to format my computer now.. getting way too messy..

today's another enjoyable day.. went to jurong swimming complex wif Jackson, Yankai n Weihao.. it was my first time there, so i was fascinated at the stuff they haf there.. 'jacuzzi', tubed slides, a loop of flowing current, n man-made tides.. the slides may lose to the one at big splash in terms of speed, but the length of the journey down makes up for it.. the current loop was quite nice oso.. especially when u try swimming in it.. as for the jacuzzi, it was juz a strong jet of water gushing out from a wall, infilterating into ur ass n sending a ticklish charge down ur nervous spine.. my favorite - the artificial tides.. going down wif the float isn't fun, but try going to the deep part without the float.. accompanied by artificial rain, the pool feels like a sea during a thunderstorm.. n u can actually feel urself gulping down the water n drowning.. nice feeling.. haha.. n not to mention i was actually wrestling wif Yankai, trying to pull his clump of already-scarce hair.. got the idea from Weihao.. wahahha.. but the changing room n toilet almost freaked mi out.. cuz it appeared in my dream before, n i've never even been to dat place b4.. freaky...

after bathing, we left for jurong point for our meal.. the food there was ex, but the variety was so huge dat we actually took more than 5 mins deciding wad to eat.. later on we went to guardian to see some 1st aid stuff, den took train home..

merely got 4 hrs of slp when Laibao's call came.. but it was mi who asked him to call mi.. haha.. n guess wad was my activity for the day.. yepz, bukit timah hike to macritchie resv again.. dis time bringing Laibao there..

we set our meeting point at some 7-eleven at geylang, den when i reached there, Laibao was nowhere in sight.. after a while, Laibao called n said how cum he nv c mi.. i almost piak my forehead.. he had gone to the wrong 7-eleven.. i already felt someting was amissed when i called him earlier n he said he was walking near manjusri sec.. stupid geylang.. so many 7-eleven..

today, didn't buy kiam tao loh ti for the fear dat i couldn't finish.. i got a croissant instead.. the path we took today was abit diff from the path i took the previous time.. but nevertheless we met up wif catchment path.. continued on pretty much the same way, but this time the monkeys were gone from rifle range road.. n guess wad i saw on the road.. it was the grossest ting i've ever seen in my whole life.. a snake squashed on the road.. not to mention dat i'm terrified of snakes.. squashed one somemore.. funniest of all, the scenario seems to haf appeared in my dreams before.. long time back.. squashed snake.. n the color of the snake was exactly the same (yellow n green) as in the dream!!.. i was totally freaked out.. but i took a pic of it aniwae.. i almost wanted to leave Laibao behind when he said he wanted to lift the squashed snake up...

the rest of the journey was kindda boring (maybe cuz i've been there before).. was damn shagged dat we didn't feel like walking, but managed to make it in the end.. i ALMOST stepped onto a baby monitor lizard which was scurrying right in front of me.. Laibao still had some time left after the ting, so we went to toa payoh to haf some tao suan.. i ordered a plate of nasi goreng but dunno y my appetite juz couldn't take it.. i left more than half of the ting uneaten.. $3.50 somemore.. grr.. foodcourt sux..

i left for home while Laibao went to work, n i was kind of relaxing n playing gunbound.. tot i could slp early today.. until my siblings asked mi to go watch The Eye 2 wif them.. midnite show somemore.. but i really wanted to watch the show, so i went ahead.. wasn't very scary.. i didn't get shocked at all.. the show really too predictable liao.. whereas i actually screamed out while watching The Park.. show ended at ard 2, we took a cab home, n it's 3 now.. so tired.. nitez..

Recent Ownage Reports

2nd entry for today.. be sure not to miss the earlier entry..

Written specially for Yongjian n the ownage reporter's team.. but funny for everyone to read abt.. mostly lame or sadistic stuff though..

1) got totally owned by TP's ice-cream vending machines when Laibao n mi went all over to find the ice-cream we wan out of stock.. on 3 machines!

2) owned by the muslim stall at business canteen when i asked 'wad's dis?' n she said 'oh.. red bean'.. i pointed to another item n asked the same question.. 'yellow bean...'... den.. i pointed to yet another item.. 'green bean'.. almost peng..

3) Got totally owned by Miss Mandy Mak (the blur lecturess who was dumb enuf to walk into the glass door at funan centre) when i received an sms frm her one morning asking mi to return her a piece of cable which i apparently didn't borrow from her.. when i called her up to clarify she said 'oh sorry i got the wrong jason'.. Sub-ownage:

a) dat time i was doing my attachment at Funan Centre.. she was my liaison officer.. she ended up looking for mi at Raffles Place instead of Funan Centre..
b) when she was leaving my workplace, she didn't realize there was a glass door right in front of her n *WHAM*... she slammed into the glass door, bounced n fell back becuz of the recoil.. everyone rushed to her n asked if she was ok, den everyone (including my boss) bursted into laughter after she left (i noe dat's wicked.. but.. haha)..

4) there was a guy in my lab who got owned by mi.. he was blasting out some gay music from his comp n he locked his comp n left the room wif the music blasting.. everyone was getting irritated, so i decided to be a hero n press the 'off' button on his comp..

5) i was on the bus wif Eddy n we took the seats which were facing backwards.. n there was dis malay auntie rite in front of us.. we were joking (in mandarin n hokkien) n laughing abt how she looked like she had juz shitted her gown n stuff den suddenly she juz moved to another seat.. tink she understand wad we said.. hahaha..

6) my sis's computer got infected wif some virus n all her music turned into nursery rhymes n kiddie songs.. wahahha.. ultimate ownage!!

7) i gave Leonard a good hard slam onto the floor of the lab when he tried to grab me from behind.. n the sound was so damn loud when he hit the ground.. owned! (dun worry.. he learns martial arts too n he noes how to fall safely..)

8) one of Eddy's neighbor came over to deliver some beehoon she had made for them, n she pressed the doorbell Eddy's dad opened the door n juz closed it right in her face.. for no apparent reason.. n the next day he had to go over n apologize.. owned!!

9) got owned by the dessert stall at mensa L2 when Laibao n mi go there everyday n the uncle juz sae dat 'oh sorry.. no more tao suan today..'

Now try to beat my number of ownage incidents.. wahhaha..

went to sku, den met Laibao for lunch at mensa.. didn't really haf much appetite, so simply had a bowl of egg salad.. after dat, we took a walk at the reservoir, n suddenly i had the idea of going to the adventure course behind the swimming complex (anione wans mi to bring u there??).. we slowly strolled there via the back of the swimming pool..

it was Laibao's 1st time there, n he was kindda astonished at the equipment they had.. first we played wif a GIANT seesaw... which could easily take at least 8 or more ppl.. ouch.. realized dat there were LOTS of wooden splinters on the ting, n i had brushed my entire hand on the ting.. surprisingly there wasn't much pain.. i pulled out the splinters one by one, until i was left wif a stubborn one which simply refused to come out.. i found a tap somewhere, n i wet my own hand, n *slash*.. i slashed the splinter out along wif some of the skin using my nails.. no bleeding though.. after dat we played wif some swinging tyres... supposed to stand on it n swing ard, but i tried climbing the rope, n realized dat i had strained my injured shoulder again.. so i let go n jumped down.. next, we tried to walk across a log which would move along wif ur slightest movement.. it was scary at first, but in the end we managed to stop trembling to make the log stay still n walked across.. i've yet to master the art of NOT walking sideways like a crab.. next was simply a balancing course in the form of a loop.. we played catching on the ting, trying not to fall down.. after dat came my favorite part.. we were supposed to hold on to a rope n swing from one platform to another using hte rope.. looks tough at 1st, but can sae it was a piece of cake.. last but not least was a piece of metal wire we had to balance on.. it was the toughest.. i didn't manage to get thru it.. nevertheless we had fun.. den dropped by at engine to get some more food, n returned to lab..

on the way back to lab, i saw Juncheng n he said he found Valen's ring n passed it to mi.. 'the pprrrreeeciousss...'.. finally.. after weeks.. haha.. Valen was so damn happy when she saw her ring.. felt happy for her oso.. wahah.. aniwae, i was abit noisy in the later part of the day.. at ard 8.45, Laibao decided to leave, but i didn't leave wif him cuz i wanted to accompany Eddy home.. aniwae let's juz sae dat dat part sux, cuz i said sth wrong n he made a big fuss out of it.. nevertheless i shutted up n went home wif him.. juz dat i didn't wanna tok to him much along the way.. tok more = more trouble..

when i finally reached home had my dinner, bathed n played gunbound.. i'm getting abit addicted.. dammit.. n i love my weapon more n more.. trying to master it.. haha.. juz hope i dun get ani more addicted can liao... else history's gonna repeat itself.. my fear of games..

a few hours after midnite i called my godbro Aearon up to chat... caught up wif quite alot of tings.. although so long (abt a year) nv meet liao still got lots of tings to tok abt.. really really miss him..

ok.. i didn't go sku today.. original intention was to revamp my aquarium 1st den go sku but by the time i finished cleaning n relocating my tanks, it was already 8.30.. found out dat i've used up all my anti-chlorine n had to run dwnstairs to buy some.. aniwae, i shifted the fishes in my room out to the living room, den brought the terrapins into my room n gave them a bigger tank.. frankly speaking i prefer my terrapins to my fish cuz they r smart enuf to beg mi for food, n i feel abit guilty dat there was once i've forgotten to feed them for nearly a month.. one of them is already growing accustomed to allowing mi to pat him on his head, while the other still hides into his shell whenever i pick him up.. n even tried to snap at mi.. but they r going to haf a gd life now that they're in my room.. easier to take care of them.. haha..

after 4 hrs of hard work, i've finally got everything in place.. i decided to ask Eddy out to bedok for dinner, den accompany him home.. enjoy sending him home, as usual.. by the time i reached home, was totally shagged out, probably bcuz of cleaning the tanks n moving them around.. abit regretting it, cuz i've placed alot of strain on my injured shoulder in the process..

chatted wif Ray regarding his arthritis, n found out dat his symptoms were exactly the same as mine.. i'm very suspicious dat i'm having dat too.. gonna go c the doc soon... maybe tmr or sat..

the surgery on my left ear seemed to haf healed completely.. wondering if i shd go for another pierce.. but of cuz i've learned my lesson.. i'll change to a bigger stud or use a earstick instead if i do decide on piercing again..
pro: i can wear all sorts of weird stuff on my ear if i pierce
con: it leaves mi wif a weak spot for people who are dumb/cheap enuf to pull on my ear..

Hope Renewed

A miracle juz came today, renewing my hopes.. cuz now i haf another 1 mth to recuperate my shoulder n train for my napfa.. superly grateful.. somehow i feel i can't die.. lots of time when my hope's on the verge of going n i'm desperate i pray n tings will juz happen..

aniwae, normal day at sku today, den Leonard was disturbing mi n somehow we sparred... *POM!!*.. guess wad happened.. i'm not going to elaborate.. haha.. Leonard seemed even more mad abt martial arts than mi.. he was bugging mi to show him the Ninjado moves but i didn't wan cuz i tink i suck.. didn't wanna humiliate myself.. lolx.. alrite.. wif my high morale now, i'll recuperate n continue training for my napfa..

woke up late, wishing i could slp 4ever.. my shoulder is getting even more painful than ever.. i'm screwed for my napfa.. dead.. went to sku, n on the way to the busstop a heavy downpour, n i was drenched.. reached sku, met Eddy for lunch n went to the lib to discuss his prj.. there was nth i could tok abt.. onli abt his prj.. went back to Laibao's lab, but didn't help much today..

but frankly i wouldn't mind if my mental pain can be converted to physical pain..

Less hope, less strength.. more despair.. i'm ending it soon...

met Eddy at bedok to go eat BK n buy some stuff, den went fishing in the afternoon.. along the way there was dis crazy old man on the bus who spat rite in the doorway juz becuz the bus conductor chased him off for not paying his fare.. i was so disgusted dat i couldn't help pointing my middle finger at him.. when i alighted the next stop to wait for another bus, he arrived on the next bus, came up to mi n toked to mi in some unknown language.. i stared at him n he juz walked off n juz walked across the road like as if it's his road.. i threw some vulgarities at him n cursed abt him being knocked down by cars n all dat.. he juz walked off, laughing to himself.. n his fellow passengers who juz alighted were staring at him oso, shocked at wad he did.. so dat was how pissed off i was, cuz i dun do or sae dis kind of tings in even once a thousand years..

the weather was damn hot at 1st, but nearing evening it began to drizzle n rain.. didn't get any fish, but it was quite a gd day, mainly cuz i really miss fishing wif Eddy.. those old days.. there was a bunch of bladers doing some stunts n it was quite entertaining watching them.. saw an old man caught a REALLY HUGE queenfish (ard 1m long).. lightnings started to flash at ard 6.30, so we quickly packed our stuff n left..

i'm really blur today.. suggested the wrong bus twice liao.. first was when going fishing dat time, 2nd was when going home with Eddy.. i tot dat 401 was heading to kallang mrt station n we boarded it.. until it juz went right past kallang n reached Suntec we sensed dat something was amiss.. we almost reached orchard when Eddy went to ask the bus driver where the bus was going to.. we almost pengz.. quickly alighted n took 2 to Eddy's hse, den home..

when i reached home i washed my knife n bathed, den went bedok central walk walk before heading for parkway to meet Jackson.. had dinner wif him, den headed down to Eddy's hse again cuz he left someting wif mi earlier on n i wanted to go pass it to him.. finally went home, n along the bus i met XianMing.. so coincidential.. reached home, watched waterboys n slacked.. going to collect my pay soon..

napfa's coming nearer by another day, n my hope has been reduced also.. soon, i'll accept fate.. abt to haf no more energy to struggle animore.. i'm going to gif up everyting n change myself soon.. anitime real soon.. life isn't going to be the same again.. juz watch.. but i will never gif up my death wish..

Hopeless....

woke up, uploaded some pics n den went to meet Raymond at bedok mrt station.. walked ard popular n the hp shops for a bit, den proceeded on to my house cuz he wanted to print some stuff n burn cds.. after doing his stuff, he helped mi train my standing broad jump. still no improvement.. i really tink i wanna gif up liao.. dun wanna go retest.. cuz no matter how hard i train still no improvement.. i've been training for like the whole week liao loh.. aniwae at nite we went to tampines to eat bk (the lamb burger), go get some zip disk, n den met Gabriel n Samuel.. watched them eat their dinner den not long after dat at ard 10 we left.. went to Eddy's hse to get someting, den went home.

i feel totally sucky..i still really wanna gif up hope on my napfa.. i mean.. wad's the point for retaking when i know in advance dat i'll fail.. passing is juz a farfetched idea.. almost all my hopes are gone liao.. aniwae, my life is so messed up currently.. too messed up wif many stuff.. at the end of the day, i'll probably not get wad i hope for.. the problems will never go.. i shd stop deluding myself wif the excuse dat 'everything's possible'.. these few weeks i find dat i've juz lost my will to live on liao.. everyday i juz live in hope of some fatal accident happening to me.. i may show a happy face, but when i reach home at the end of the day i juz sit there n tink.. y am i in dis state?? is there no one out there who can help mi?? i've tried to salvage the situation, but no use.. feel so hopeless..

Up to ITAS Rooftop

juz a normal day at sku.. except dat we visited the ITAS rooftop again today (visited it once yest), twice somemore.. dis time wif [Mi, Valen, Laibao, Aaron] and [Mi, Laibao, Joe, Wendy, Widhong, Yongjian].. haha.. looks like my fear of heights is slowly decreasing.. too used to climbing the ladder liao.. n somemore when u're up above there's an even higher ladder u haf to climb (to an even higher rooftop).. when i tried to climb it yest my legs were wobbling like jelly.. today not so worse, even when i tried the higher one.. up there, my camera suddenly ran out of battery, so after we went back to the lower rooftop, n into the door of the water tanks, i borrowed Valen's fone to take video along the way.. trying to simulate the ghost show effect.. after we ended up in the IISO labs dat side, we went back to lab n the 2nd batch wanted to go up, so mi n Laibao went wif them while Valen stayed behind to do project.. since 2nd grp got more ppl, it was much more fun.. Wendy was climbing up n down the ladder wif her high heel shoes.. haha.. aniwae, we somehow passed thru a metal staircase along the way n we all went 'sshhhhh...' cuz her high heel shoes were too noisy.. wahaha...when we reached IISO labs dat side n went down the stairs from level 8 to 5 to go back into the building, Joe commented 'can u dun be so noisy anot??' (referring to Wendy's shoes).. lolx..

Nothing much.. juz woke up n went to sku today.. once again, juz stayed in Laibao's lab n tried to help him.. was getting REALLY hungry at ard 4.30 cuz i've not eaten yet, so got Valen to buy a pao for mi.. juz when she came back at 5, Eddy came over n asked mi to go for lunch.. went sku of business to eat today.. i ate vegetarian food.. haha.. cuz nothing better to eat.. eat western eat till sian liao.. after finishing our food we hanged ard to chat n slack, n went back at ard 6..

yesterday, Laibao's supervisor wanted him to change the whole database structure, which meant dat the code had to be changed heavily as well.. in the end, both of us were getting frustrated n restless.. n tired out.. Laibao n his grp members finally decided to call it a day n go for dinner.. i was supposed to join them initially, but i went Eddy's lab saw dat he was alone in the lab (except for 2 gals who he don't noe), so i felt dat i had to stay wif Eddy instead.. Laibao went off n i stayed n helped Eddy pack his stuff.. some disaster happened to his files n he was desperately trying to recover his files... finally the lab technician came to chase us away, so we had to go..

i sent Eddy to his void deck, den went home.. was totally shagged out at looking at Laibao's code.. wahahha.. hate it when supervisors love to make last min changes..

i juz downloaded gunbound n started playing it.. damn addictive.. guess i haf to remove it from my system liao.. i dun wanna let history repeat itself... dun wanna get hooked on another game.. dat's y i seldom play popular games nowadays

woke up, uploaded some pics, n went to sku at ard 3.. the sky was overcast when i left my home but luckily it didn't rain until i got down the bus at tp n reached IT sku..

didn't manage to find Laibao in his lab, so i called him. he was having lunch in mensa along wif Yongjian n dat indonesian guy (uh-oh.. i 4got his name). had a californian roll but still felt hungry after dat, so i went for a chicken salad.. nice, but i wished they had used breast meat instead of thigh meat.. after a really long lunch, we went back to lab.

though we were quite restless today, Laibao managed to get some parts done, onli to introduce even more serious bugs (like memory leak) into the program.. Eddy came quite late today, n he left for next door soon after.. at ard 6, i got abit restless n hungry n decided to go scavage for food.. we walked all the way to engine, to find nothing much left, n den went to design.. quite abit of nice stuff left in the drink stall.. got those kind of fried flour whereby got a prawn on top, some ok pocky, n also a bunch of fishballs for Eddy. along the way back to IT we walked ard the sports complex n the open auditorium at the fountains.. got a chance to test my standing broad jump at the sports complex.. i finished the prawn ting n the ok pocky, so decided to drop by business sku (since it was nearby) to get more ok pocky for my labmates.. back at IT, we happen to spot some gals doing some sort of strange dance in wad used to be the IT canteen.. when we finally reached the lab, i passed the fishballs to Eddy n continued to watch Laibao..

the prawn ting i've eaten earlier had caused a piece of prawn shell to be stuck in between 2 of my canine teeth, so i was having trouble getting it out.. i've tried using everyting - from my own fingernails to Eddy's fishball's satay stick to Laibao's old farecard - to get the damn ting out, but to no avail.. locked myself in the toilet for quite some time to get the ting out, but it juz refused to come out.. in the end, i decided to gif up, after my gums started bleeding.. miraculously the ting came out by itself after i stopped fiddling wif it for 15 mins..

Laibao's project supervisor came in to discuss sth wif them, so i was juz hanging ard, disturbing Yongjian n looking thru Laibao's code.. aniwae Laibao was standing near a computer which was working halfway on a report, n he leaned against it unconciously.. when he got up he suddenly exclaimed dat his report had grew to 51 pages long mysteriously.. i took a look - n it has happened dat he was sitting on the 'x' key, n he sat long enuf for the report to grew to dat length.. lolx..

we left the lab quite late today - ard 9.15.. we took 69 to bedok, den i walked home from there.. reached home, ate, bathed n had some rest.. somehow i'm feeling quite moody today.. sucky... maybe it's cuz i'm scared of my napfa retest, but i tink it's more than dat.. too many tings going on in my mind.. i dunno wad i myself tink.. always tell ppl not to worry, yet i worry too much myself.. haha

A REALLY Long Day

Woke up quite late again, to upload pics onto my new online album (will put up the links once I've got everything ready). Uploading wif my dialup connection was damn slow, along wif the fact dat my modem keeps disconnecting abt every 15 mins.. Gd ting the uploading can resume..

aniwae, along the way to the dining room to haf my lunch, i almost slipped on someting wet n slimy on the floor.. i looked down n saw dat it was BLOOD!! oh gosh.. so i asked my mum y there was so much blood on the floor.. she looked very paiseh n told mi the reason.. she accidentally dirtied the floor wif her blood n forgot to clean it up.. for those who still dun get it, i shalln't elaborate.. i almost died when i heard wad she said!! oh no.. i can't buy 4d for a year now..

I was fickled abt whether i shd go tp.. cuz i didn't noe if i was needed.. but after Laibao said 'one more brain tink oso better', i felt so enthu to go back.. wahahha..

the weather was COMPLETELY fine when I left my hse, n juz when i walked to the point whereby there was no shelter animore, it suddenly started to rain.. n heavily!! at the traffic light, i moved backward a little to make way for an auntie on my left, n *PIAK*! i landed my sandals on a huge awful puddle of muddy water.. being wet wasn't a problem, but i was more worried abt whether it would stink n knock everyone out in the lab later on.. i was totally drenched by the time i reached the bus stop.. n guess wad.. the rain stopped once i boarded the bus!!! toking abt an unlucky day!!

i was still wet when i reached sku at 5.30, n the first ting Izzak n Laibao asked mi was 'eh.. y u so wet?'.. n Leonard asked 'u went swimming izzit?'.. when i tried to explain how I was caught in the rain, guess wad they replied.. 'got rain meh?? but the weather so sunny today!'.. grrr.. i wanted to slap myself in the head.. i quickly removed my sandals n walked around barefooted to prevent my sandals from stinking up.

before i settled down to watch Laibao do his prj, i caught Eddy sleeping in the back row at Rama's place.. i went up to him, tried to wake him up, shook him, even confiscated his glasses, but he still refused to wake up.. trying to play afool, eh? so i took his glasses far far away n he was like 'eh??? where u taking my glasses to?'.. wahahha.. he left the lab soon after dat, n i was being lame n tried to capture Yongjian on my cam n trying to put his face as wallpaper.. wahah.. Finally i managed to settle down.. In the end it was discovered dat Laibao's program wasn't running correctly cuz of some spelling errors, about 'received' being spelled as 'recieve'.. we changed here changed there oso couldn't work.. den when we changed back to the original code, it miraculously worked.. wahahah..

my mouth was getting itchy by around 6.30, so we decided to visit the pau stall downstairs to c if we could get aniting before it closes.. there was nothing left, besides some gnoh hiam, so we left for the business canteen instead.. along the way, we were toking abt telling the auntie 'nao hia' instead of 'gnoh hiam' n somehow managed to link to the story in our sec sku chinese textbook abt the sausages growing below the nose after a couple made the wrong wish.. crap.. haha.. our appetites haf gone away by the time we reached business sku, so we got some light stuff instead - iced mocha, bombay toast, a packet of panda biscuit n some okpocky.. since we were in sku of business, i decided to go look for Jackson in his lab.. in sku of business, i had trouble getting past the 3rd floor.. the staircase was kind of hidden.. had to search high n low before i could locate it.. n the corridors beyond the 3rd floor was very unfamiliar too.. first time i visited business lab.. quite small in terms of space, but the computers are sooo damn advanced compared to dat of IT sku.. all LCD monitors.. wah liew... but the lab looked more stressful than the labs in IT, maybe cuz it looks more confined cuz of its size..

along the way back to Laibao's lab, we passed by the sandwich machine, n i decided to gif it a try.. let's c.. it saes 'Fast, Delicious, Nutritious'.. so i put my note there, to be rudely snatched away by the machine.. n i had to stand there like a fool n wait for 2 mins for the damn machine to make the sandwich.. dat defeats 'Fast'.. after an eternal wait the sandwich was tossed out into the collection slot, n i cautiously lifted it up.. it was so damn hot to hold... but for its price, it was way too small.. $2.50.. when i tore open the packaging n took my 1st bite, i decided dat the 'delicious' factor was defeated too.. wasn't dat nice after all.. the bread was abit chao da.. so 'nutritious' was definitely out also.. n does the machine have to be so stingy on the mushrooms?!?

back in the lab, Laibao started on the more non-technical stuff.. journals n storyboards.. he really did look more interested in those.. haha... was joking all the way thru.. aniwae, i received an sms from Eddy asking mi to go tm wif him to buy clothes.. so we were supposed to meet at the ATM in tp at 8.35.. juz at around dat time, we suddenly caught Valen digging thru the rubbish bin.. den we found out dat she had actually lost her ring, n she was frantically looking for it.. soon, Laibao n mi were frantically digging thru the bin as well.. looking for needle in a sack of hay.. haha.. in the end we managed to find nothing n as we were washing our hands in the toilet (i was still barefooted den.. lolx), i discovered dat it was already 8.45, n i was supposed to meet Eddy! i literally RAN to the ATM...

after i told Eddy abt the ring incident, he exclaimed dat Juncheng found a ring earlier on in the mobile lab, n after some questioning, it was confirmed dat the ring belonged to Valen.. but the ting was.. Juncheng had threw the ring somewhere after playing wif it.. i called Laibao to tell him abt it, so they went back to the mobile lab to look for the ring, but didn't find it in the end.. the lab technician was closing the lab, so they didn't manage to get to dig the rubbish bin there... let's hope we'll find it tmr..

when we reached tampines central, Eddy decided to go G2000 to get some formal clothing for his presentation.. he tried piece by piece, size by size, n i was outside his cubical to help him c if he looked nice anot.. but the shop assistant lady was very polite n patient.. even after the shop was closing.. haha.. Eddy was shocked when he came out of his changing room to see the doors of the shop already partially closed.. it was 9.30 then.. after dat, we went to long john for a quick meal, before we went home.. one of the rare occasions where i didn't send Eddy home..

have had a REALLY long day, but it was an interesting n fulfiling day wif a fair share of fun.. exploring sku of biz, walking ard the labs n 8th-floor corridors n toilet barefooted, searching thru the rubbish bin.. yawnz... it's 4.20 in the morning now.. time to slp..

slept my morning away again.. haha.. Eddy was featured in my dream dis morning but i forgot abt wad.. aniwae, woke up quite late, n my body was still aching n bruised from the napfa test on fri.. tink i ate sth wrong yest.. cuz i on my computer suddenly needed to rush to the toilet liao..

basically spent my afternoon helping Jackson abit wif his prj n doing some research for Eddy.. halfway thru, i needed to rush to the toilet again.. initially planned to go out for dinner wif my parents for dinner but at the last min Eddy called so i decided to go dinner wif him instead.

i was supposed to meet Eddy at cash converter, but when i reached there was no signs of him.. called him, sms him n he nv replied.. tot sth happened to him, until he called n said he was at the toilet at mph cuz of stomachache.. haha.. so coincidential.. stomachache oso.. aniwae mine hasn't fully recovered but it was ok enuf for mi to bear wif.. we went to pizza hut for dinner.. ordered the seafood setmeal.. the $24.90 one.. the pizza tasted abit weird, maybe cuz of the tuna inside.. but the tasty part lies in the cheese n crispy crust.. haha..

after dinner Eddy subconciously walked to Giant, n i followed him blindly. it was after we reached there den Eddy asked 'eh?? wad am i here for??'.. so we climbed down the flights of escalator down to the basement while Eddy go look for his stuff n i went to the toilet.. we went to play pool after dat.. after winning mi 2 games in a row, Eddy got complacent n started to plan on how he was going to trash mi thruout... grrr... but he got his just dessert when i beat him in the last game.. wahahha

sent Eddy home after the game, den took a bus back.. watching waterboys now.. wahhaha