Real stupid dream.. dreamed dat 'Bai Ze' from the murder show was after me.. lolx.. Was woke up by Laibao's call dis "morning", onli to find out dat it's 1.30pm liao.. He wanted to go walk walk after dismissal from sku n before going to work at NTUC, so I went to meet him at Bedok interchange.

Basically juz walked ard, n den I took bus wif him to see him off to work. Grabbed a cookie from the confectionary (dat was my lunch). Was wondering where to go.. I saw dat there's 65 there, so I decided to go Haborfront.

Dat place brings back a piece of my old memories:

There was a time i took a ferry from there to go Kusu Island fish wif Eddy.. We bought the tickets first, den went to buy film at some shop, which was surprisingly not dat ex.. The Monkshill scouts were taking the same ferry wif us.. Upon reaching Kusu Island, we walked past the 'No Fishing' sign while holding to our long n big fishing rods.. lolx.. We found ourselves a great spot, n there were bites ard every 10 secs!.. but most of the fishes bite liao n swam away instead of getting hooked.. in the end we still got 5 fish.. though not very big, but ok la.. But dat area damn rocky.. Eddy lost lots of floats over these.. haha.. den.. the worse part came.. we heard the horn from the ferry, meaning the last ferry was abt to leave. we ran back to the pier at once, but i couldn't run at dat time, maybe i was kancheong, so I told Eddy to go ahead without me. In the end, both of us didn't manage to catch the ferry. So.. guess wad.. we tot we were going to be stuck on dat island until the next morning. However, we decided to give our last hope to a small visitor centre over there.. which still got ppl in it.. we found out dat they were going to leave the island also on their own bumboat, so we were quite happy.. but so damn paiseh.. holding onto our fishing rods on a fishing-prohibited area.. so in the end they took us back on their bumboat, n instead of going back to Haborfront, they dropped us at colleyr quay (or however u spell dat). We got a chance to step into the Cheng Ho (a very posh cruise ferry) cuz the bumboat was behind the Cheng Ho, n we had to reach it by crossing thru the Cheng Ho.. There was sort of like a buffet room inside.. Really luxurious..

ok.. back to today.. i juz went ard walk walk, n c if Wenhui was working at Mr Bean today. was very tempted to explore the cable car tower, but decided against dat cuz dunno if the building was restricted anot.. took 93 to eunos so can c scenery along the way.. passed by Lornie Rd (the place I came out from after hiking in macritchie n bukit timah). I rushed home after I reached Eunos cuz remembered dat i'm going out wif my family for dinner tonite.

my dad was supposed to be back from Batam at 7, but we waited until 8.30 den he came back to fetch us out for dinner. we went to some chinese restaurant (Xiao Tian Sha) in Geylang for dinner. The food wasn't bad, but i made the mistake of stuffing myself with water dat I didn't get to eat much. But the toilet sucked, cuz the door was spoiled, n it almost collapsed onto me!

Today's one of the most boring days of my life... Stayed at home, doing nth except playing wif my hp, chat online, n abit of FF6, n slept.. Was quite fickled abt wanna go out for dinner anot - cuz stay at home damn sian, but on the other hand, dun wanna spend too much $.. wahahha.. wanted to push myself to go out, but i'll feel abit lazy when abt to make my decision..

now planning abt where i should go tmr.. cuz everyone bz tmr, so it's another day of soloing.. hmmzz...

bah.. sorry for the short entry.. cuz nth much happened today..

Hold Firm to Your Beliefs...

This morning had another weird dream... hey.. for some unknown reasons i've been able to remember my dreams lately.. 1st half i can't remember clearly.. is abt i advice someone abt wad bus to take n all dat.. 2nd part.. my mum did something very cruel.. she actually threw 3 live birchir (those long long fish in the tank inside my room loh..) into a pot of oil, n wanted to light their fins up on fire.. n they were swimming n struggling in the oil.. it was for some sort of religious sacrifice.. i managed to save the poor fish, though one of them was seriously injured, but survived. 2 were alrite.. i got them a better, bigger tank n they lived merrily ever after.. wahahha..

ok, i woke up n did basically NOTHING except for chat on net.. n went back to playing abit of Final Fantasy 6 to pass time, after sooooooooo damn long nv touch dat game. when i got bored of it, i switched to street fighter to bash up cyber-akuma wif my air combos.. wahahha.. after dat i realized i'm quite sick of all these games again... guess can onli wait for Ashen/HL2 to come out... these few days i noticed dat my appetite has grown tremendously.. shit man.. tink i'm putting on weight liao..

in the evening, went to Bedok interchange to meet Eddy for dinner. Had our usual Hup Lee again. following dat, i went to his hse, gelek ard, n we went dwnstairs for a stroll. along the way, we were debating abt whether it was Bernard's fault dat he last min pangseh the class at Paddle Culture cuz Changi called him up instead. wahahah.. I was on Bernard's defending side (though i personally dun click well wif him)..

after getting home I got on the net, n continued the religion-debate wif Weikang which stretched from yesterday. Okay, he was trying to get me to go to church n stuff, but I'm not very keen on dat, after having left church before (okay.. initially i was a buddhist thru my family.. at ard 14 I became christian, n at 16 I became free-tinker, cuz I didn't feel like myself when I was a Christian.. everyting had to follow church.. I juz want to be myself..). Somehow I feel dat everyone has their own beliefs, n we are all right in our own ways. We can let others understand our own beliefs, but I feel dat we shouldn't try to make others abolish their own beliefs juz to follow ours. For dis reason, i still encourage Weikang to stand strong in his faith, but I got abit pissed off when he kept trying to sae there's someting wrong abt my belief. this has happened to me for years.. Christians bugging me n telling me dat I should go church n read bible n all dat.. grrr... who r they to sae my belief is wrong.. aniwae, the conversation ended when i made a challenge wif Weikang.. I said i would go to church wif him for once, but I can guarantee dat i'll stand firm in my own belief n i will not be keen to go back after once (which he is sooo confident of).. click here to see his side of the story under the post "God's Wisdom"..

since the recovery of my leg last sun n recovery of the Eddy incident, i've become super-duper hyperactive n talkative.. can nv seem to stop talking n chitchatting.. maybe a little too much, enuf to irritate ppl.. returning to my normal not-so-sad self.. hopefully..

Today morning had another dream.. lately i'm dreaming alot.. haha.. dreamed dat i somehow bought a 3650 handfone.. den for some weird reasons i cancelled my POSB account, reopened it, den applied for DBS n OCBC n UOB.. this is wad i vaguely remember..

aniwae, i woke up, gelek gelek abit n went to city hall for Betty's ROM ceremony. she invited all the guests for lunch at dis private dining room at the 69th level of westin stamford.. WHOA.. the view there really nice.. click here for the pics.. it's a pity big bro aearon n the rest couldn't make it cuz they in army. people sae a woman looks the best during her marriage. though Betty didn't wear her wedding gown today, dat saying proved to be true.. she was GORGEOUS.. haha.. n her sis damn chio oso.. wish i can sian her.. =P .. managed to witness people saying 'I do' in real life for the 1st time.. i really ate like a glutton the moment the lunch started.. i had 5 helpings of food, n was abt the go for the 6 when the rest of them wanted to leave, so i left along wif them. nice food, though not much variety.. high-class version of laksa, carrot cake, spring roll, n lots of yummy stuff. felt so paiseh i too broke to gif her ang pao...

after the lunch, i rushed home to changed from my jeans into shorts, cuz i wanted to go out window shopping, n i can't stand wearing long pants. met Laibao after dat (ard 9) n sent him home.. den, took 40 n 12 home.

my napfa is coming nxt week, n i still haven train yet.. i'm sure all of u are dying to c how ugly i will die during my napfa.. wahhaha.. aniwae i still feel my life is in a mess n i really need to sort everyting out all over again.. waiting for the perfect opportunity to do so.. dammit.. haf to wait until i can let go of my past.. which i still couldn't..

Weikang did a survey today to see which of his frens has wad special talent.. i asked him y n he explained cuz he wanted to start a company, n he wans to recruit people wif the skills he need once he starts it off. n dis is his aim: to start a company where all ur frens can work together.. well, sounds inspiring to me.. dat's my dream job/company too.. whereby everyone are my gd frens.. ppl i already noe.. hmmzz..

Interest fact abt mi: when ppl are bz playing soccer in sec sku, i was bz learning n doing programming at home.. but after 3 years in poly i swore i'd never work as a programmer or any desk-bound job.

started the day with a really strong n weird dream in the morning:

went kayaking at changi airport (??? kayaking at airport???) with Jackson, Yankai, Kimjoo, Weihao n Eddy as well. Dunno y the water got lots of snakes.. Was terrified throughout the whole kayaking session cuz of the snakes. I almost got bitten by a viper, but heng I dodged fast enuf. Somehow we got scolded badly by some instructor there.

after the kayaking session, we went to the kopitiam to eat (changi airport got kopitiam meh??), n left not long after dat. When leaving dat time, somehow I ended up with Eddy at terminal 2. When we were abt to board the MRT (in the dream, all the buses became MRT instead), I realized i've totally forgotten abt Jackson, dat we were supposed to be taking the same bus. I rushed back to terminal 1 to look for him, but couldn't find him n tot he left. when the mrt was abt to leave, he came rushing dwn to the mrt, n he said he juz went to play wif sth wif Kimjoo. it was still quite early in the day. after we boarded the mrt, i realized dat I've forgotten abt Eddy oso. Jackson somehow suggested going to the airfield at kembangan, which was onli one station away (huh.. since when kembangan got airfield, n onli one station from changi airport??), so I asked Eddy along.. the dream ended there..

lame, but the dream was clear enuf, so I decided it was worth noting down. aniwae, back to reality. had quite a hectic day at Ray's house, helping him wif his project. Wow.. my programming cells are dying out.. he treated mi BK for dinner. in the end we managed to finish most of the program. Ray went online to tok to his projectmate abt some project stuff, n got scolded petty, n got called a loser. was so damn pissed wif dat guy.. n Ray.. he was literally SHOUTING his head off at the guy over the phone at the bus stop. could see he was totally on fire. AUGUSTINE n CHEEHOE really sux..

today.. had a great chat wif Eddy on phone n SMS. rite now.. wad's on my mind.. i hope Jackson's health will get better. i hope Ray will get thru dis hellish project ordeal soon.. i hope my kayaking pals will pass their 3 star assessment soon. n excited for Betty, cuz she's going to the ROM tomorrow.. yepz.. registry of marriage. i'll be there to see her in her most beautiful moments!

Was supposed to go back TP meet Ray in the noon, but someting cropped up on Ray's side so had to change my plan. Initially I wanted to go hiking tmr, but since Ray asked me to make myself available tmr instead, I decided to go today instead. The past few times I've gone hiking at Bukit Timah wif Laibao, we keep missing our destination - Macritchie Natural Reserve. So, I wanted to try to find the place by myself. Prepared 3 bottles of water, a packet of sulphur (i'm scared of snakes..), some extra clothes cuz I'm going out at nite, a poncho in case it rains, a swiss army knife n lighter (usual hiking stuff), n of cuz, my watch, hp n camera.

it was already quite late when I reached the visitor centre - 1430. I went to the information counter to get a map. I didn't bother to look at the map den, n it was until I got quite deep in the forest den I realized he had given me the Macritchie map instead of the Bukit Timah map.. bah.. nvm.. i tikam my way thru, relying on my trustworthy watch for directions, n guess wad.. I found a shortcut via Catchment Path to Belukar Track (or sth.. I 4got the spelling) instead of having to go thru Dairy Farm, as wad mi n Laibao did the previous times. Before that, I was struggling with trying to scale/hop up n down the rocks/trails at Rock Path n Cave Path. Quite miraculous, cuz didn't get bitten by any mosquito. The ngage/camera combi proved itself to be very effective, as I could mms Laibao "guess where i am now", with a pic of the Belukar pipes attached. Along the way, I saw a monitor lizard scurrying in front of me (click here for the album), n a blue dragonfly whizzing about.. nice sia..

As I walked along the track, i heard rifle gunshots from nearby. I traced the sound n found myself at the rifle range liao. Woohoo.. After 2 hours of searching n walk ard, I've finally got to a point shown on the Macritchie map. There was a canal nearby the rifle range, with LOTS of monkeys sitting on the railing. I was abit scared to walk past at first cuz the monkeys looked menancing, but when I finally decided to walk near, the monkeys seemed oblivious to me. Since I was in a location shown on the map, the rest of the journey wasn't a problem, except that I had to find the shortest way to Macritchie cuz time was running out, n the map actually stated dat the time taken to hike thru dat area would be 4-5 hours! If i dun get out before nitetime falls, I'd definitely be in trouble. using my watch + map again, I managed to trace a shortcut to Macritchie.. heng arh..

this time, I came across a tall viewing tower, which provided a really nice scenery of the entire natural reserve from up above. U can find the fotos from the album. As I continued along the way, I came across this path whereby the entire trail was made of boards, built above a swamp. kind of like the marsh garden in Pasir Ris/West Coast, only that it was MUCH longer. Quite a great view along the way. After some perseverance, I finally caught the sight of some people fishing, with a golf course nearby. Dat means I've reached the reservoir. However, I continued to walk n ended up in a forested area again. Then i realized dat the reservoir was not the end of the trail. To reach the bus stop I would have to pass some more forested area. As I walked along Lornie Trail, lots of army guys were jogging thru, n past me. Finally, I walked thru a bridge, n thru the last forested path to Lornie Road. The moment I made my way up of the steep path n out of the forest, the bus stop was standing juz before my very eyes. It was 1735 den.. ard 25 mins ahead of my targetted time.

I took 93 n 28 to the Post Centre at Paya Lebar, n stopped there to wash my face, change my clothes, n have a quick snack before heading off to Orchard to meet up with Ridzwan. Damn.. Was half an hour late again.. Muz really try to change my bad habit of being late liao.. Aniwae, it's been more than 7 years since Ridzwan n mi have last met each other. Was surprised we could still recognize each other at the MRT station. We went for dinner, n had lots of tings to catch up wif.. after all, it's been more than 7 years...

After dinner, we walked around HMV n Annex. At heerens, I remembered dat there are bdays approaching, n I have to start scouting for a gift. Ridzwan's bday is approaching too, at the end of March. Hope wun have to go broke again dis month.. wahahah

today i discovered that Ridzwan was actually staying juz ard a 20-mins walking distance away from me. We took a bus back to bedok, n sat at Mac, trying to figure out how to activate his GPRS (starhub sux.. i called them n 10 mins den got technician assist me). we went home after dat.. I wanted to walk home, but my leg was already starting to become sore after one entire day of non-stop no-break walking. Took a bus home instead.

Wow.. when I reached home I shitted blood.. old syndrome returning.. haha..

Went back to Changi today along with Jackson, Kaiyong n Yankai, to tag along their 3-star assessment. The earlier part of the day went on fine - towing n rescues. However, the harder skills came after lunch, n some of them were having problems. In the end, after a tough try, we still failed.. All our morales were quite shattered the moment we heard that we need to come back for a reassessment. I felt equally disappointed as any of them. I've tried my best to try to help them, but somehow I juz fail. Didn't seem to be able to work out stuff. Felt so useless sia... Sorry Jackson, Yankai n Kaiyong..

Knowing that they are still going to try for another assessment, I've decided that I'll join them when they continue practising. I'm glad that nobody has given up yet.

After the session, Yankai left first, as he had to go back to prepare for his tests for the coming week. Kianheng left, n Jackson, Kaiyong n mi went to Tampines to have BK. I thought that all the 3 of us are the quiet kind, but we managed to joke n suan here suan there along the bus ride n during dinner. Wahaha..

Recently I keep having a feeling that some people are kind of avoiding me for some reasons I don't even know. Maybe I did/say someting wrong n didn't even realize it. For instance, I've tried to call Shufen n she didn't answer my call; the fone was juz left ringing. I tried to SMS her or send her an ICQ msg, but there was no reply either. N I'm pretty sure I'm having the correct hp number. I thought that maybe I was sensitive, but how come Aearon msg her she replied n I msged her at ard the same time she nv reply me?? I really dun noe the reason behind dat, n I hope that if I've did someting which irritated her she could at least tell me. Even if she nv forgive me, at least if she told me I would know my own mistakes n make sure it wouldn't happen again. N she's not the only one. Maybe there's some bad habit about me which is slowly making me lose my frens.. Or it could very well be bcuz of my past. Maybe she has somehow discovered sth abt my past. I've had a scary past, so scary dat I've told it to less than a handful of my frens, n even I fear it myself. Some 'frens' have left me bcuz of dat. Sometimes I juz wish I could tell others abt it, but God knows who's going to leave me after knowing it.