was woken up dis morning by Eddy's dad.. he was asking mi how was my napfa n how my back was n etc.. haha.. was so shocked man.. thanx to everyone who gave mi support even though i didn't managed to pass my napfa.. will try even harder the next time..

my afternoon was spent on trying to model a signboard in 3d.. cuz i keep tinking of this scene which i really wanna model n render as 3d graphics.. i managed to finish the signboard only after the whole afternoon.. pathetic.. click here to see my progress.. dun look at the ground n the sky yet.. today i'm onli focusing on the signboard n tree.. haha..

went tampines n bugis in the evening to go look for clothes n stuff.. initially wanted to get some subway cookies for dinner, but was tempted by macdonalds in the end. got a big mac meal.. feel so odd sia.. 1st time go eat mac alone.. haha.. while boarding the bus at tampines some guy nv queue up n a malay gal from behind shouted at him 'eh... u can't queue izzit??'.. dat guy didn't even respond den later ppl tot is mi nv queue up.. haha.. sucky guy..

got home n found a feast waiting for mi.. apparently my mum had gone on a shopping spree for food again.. diet plan ruined again =(.. really need to get some weight off so can jump further for my broadjump...

So damn tired now.. I failed my napfa today.. all becuz of my broad jump.. damn it.. the miracles happened.. i could do everyting, but wif the exception of the jump.. i got a 212cm.. still needed 4 more cm to get a silver.. n i dun tink i even got dat score myself loh.. i tink the invigilator pitied mi cuz i fell n landed on my whole body many many times while jumping.. it was like as if the whole world crashed onto me.. cuz.. failing to get silver means i wun get even a chance to be together wif Eddy or ani of my frens during ns.. i will try again at the end of dis month but i'm losing hope liao.. really dun haf much mood to retake or aniting.. n besides i dun tink i can ever get back those points i've scored for the other stations today.. i'm sure all of u noe how weak i am.. there's no way a miracle can happen twice rite?? i didn't even do my 2.4 today cuz i simply didn't haf any more mood to run.. i suck.. n if i dun get to be together wif ani of my frens in army i'll probably not be able to take it mentally cuz i'm still extremely dependent.. i'll die... who knows i might end my own life den.. dun tink anione can help mi now.. fuck life..

a recap of wad happened:
-my leg cramped when i was doing my situp.. gd ting the invigilator let mi take a 2nd time..
-i didn't know how to start my shuttlerun, to the dismay of the invigilator.. i was asking him 'err.. how do i run?'
-i ripped my anus when doing my broadjump for the 1st time.. it was so damn painful n when i told the invigilator 'i injured my asshole' everyone started laughing.. they didn't seem to believe me.. it hurt so much i was immobilized on the floor for 2 mins or so before being able to stand up.. i tink i'm going to shit blood tonite..
-many times i did my broadjump i fell flat on my back or side wif a huge 'thud' on the floor.. n everyone went "OUCHHHH!!!...".. i was so damn embarassed..
-when i opted out of my 2.4km i used the anus-rip as an excuse.. ppl oso asked mi y i dun wanna do my 2.4km i oso used dat as an excuse when it's actually i was too depressed to take

situp - 45
pullup - 7
shuttlerun - 10.3s
broadjump - fuck it.. 212cm
sit n reach - 40cm
2.4km run - heck it.. since i can't even pass my broadjump

FUCK LIFE.. I'M A FAILURE..

woke up at Eddy's hse dis morning.. accompanied Eddy back to tp, den went to tampines central n took 10 home instead of 31 or 67 cuz i wanted to take a longer walk.. so damn tired.. kept falling aslp on the bus along the way.. when the bus reached east coast it was raining DAMN heavily, but i couldn't wait to get home n rest, so i walked right into the rain, to the disbelief of some p sku kids at the bus stop.. wahahha

like as if the rain wasn't heavy enuf, i somehow managed to get myself lost at senette drive.. n had to find my way out of dat damn mazy road, in the heavy rain. i was totally drenched until my t-shirt became translucent.. haha.. finally reached the tall staircase which leads to bedok south.. 7 or 8 flights of steps down.. but it was quite a view, cuz can see the water gushing down the staircase like a river liddat.. haha.. finally when i got home, had a nice hot bath, settled some stuff for Eddy n went for a nap.

woke up at 6, to find myself alone in the house.. my mum n bro had gone for dinner at Suki Sushi at parkway.. initially wanted to reserve myself in case Jackson needed help for his prj, but he seemed to be doing quite ok so i tot of going to sku to look for Laibao.. but i felt dat there wouldn't be much tings for mi to do there today so i decided to go parkway look for my mum n bro.

i reached parkway juz before they finished their buffet dinner, so i joined in.. the food was REAL nice (got sharkfin.. buffet somemore), until i accidentally ate some wasabi, worsening my cough (which was already bad enuf).. plus, the taste of the wasabi made me haf to look for a toilet to vomit in the end cuz my stomach felt like it was burning (not 1st time liao.. it'll oso happen if i happen to chew on garlic accidentally). dat feeling sux.. aniwae after dat went to look for a earphone wif my bro at courts, harvey norman n best denki, den my dad came to fetch us home.

tmr's my napfa.. aniwae, today i tried to do pullups n was surprised i could do 6 (my record was 4 onli), n i haf never trained my pullup for a very long time.. i juz need one more to pass my napfa tmr.. miracles always seem to happen whenever the time is near.. juz like last time i could suddenly run 4.8km when i had to train for the race.. n it oso happened during my 3 star kayaking.. hope the miracle reaches its peak tmr.. but i damn scared, cuz my cough is getting worse.. plus, the wasabi is still burning me..

yawnx.. tiring day.. haha.. woke up relatively early today (10.30pm??).. basically spent the rest of the morning helping to debug Eddy's project, den went back to tp to *try* to help Laibao wif his prj again, as a continuation of yesterday..

upon reaching tp, i went to say 'hi' to Eddy first, before going in to look for Laibao. in the earlier part of the day, there was not much progress.. one of Laibao's classmate had taken a pic of a gal n distorted it using his hp.. the face was warped in such a way whereby the eyes n mouth became like a rabbit.. i saw liao couldn't stop laughing.. n he had secretly snapped Doug Pritchet (dat botak short short german lecturer aka Tintin aka Hitler aka Charlie Chaplin) too.. wahahha!! quoted from him: "i wanna go n slap his head.."

at around 3, Eddy decided to go tampines central for lunch, so i went wif him.. had long john silver (again!!), n den went around to do some window shopping.. i saw dis umbro vest going for onli $16.90 in sportslink (originally 49.90), so i couldn't resist n bought it.. haha.. tink it was quite a great buy.. went back to sku at ard 6 after Eddy left.

more hell of laughing while back at sku.. the same old pic i was laughing abt earlier on.. n dis time Laibao's fren sent the pic into my hp too, so i zoomed in n it was even much more funnier.. both mi n Laibao couldn't concentrate, n laughed until stomach cramp n tears came out.. in the end, managed to solve abit of Laibao's prob, but we left at 8.50 before managing to solve the other prob..

the same old routine from yesterday happened when we were walking on the concouse.. going to the water cooler to drink, n toking abt how eerie tp is at nitetime.. took a bus to Bedok to haf our dinner (in a stall whereby there's NOTHING left but plain chicken rice.. the signboard so many tings though sia..).. den took 40 to Eddy's hse.. to explain some prj stuff to him.. shd be staying overnite tonite.. tired.. *yawns*

didn't haf any initial plans today, but since i remembered dat Laibao's having some problems wif his project stuff, i decided to go to sku to see if i can help him.. n look for Eddy n Yongjian at the same time.

when i arrived at Laibao's lab, i saw dat his group was having a meeting wif their supervisor, so i decided not to go in. instead, i went to look for Eddy instead.. juz sat ard n watch him do his stuff. halfway thru i got bored n tried to bother Yongjian using my bluetooth. didn't manage to detect him, so I called him n asked him where he was.. it turned out dat he was in his own lab, juz dat i didn't spot him cuz he changed his seat. i went over to his lab for awhile to see if i could help wif his prj.

juz as Laibao's supervisor was leaving, Eddy wanted to go for his lunch, so I went to eat wif Eddy first n decided to come back to help Laibao after dat. we went to engin sku to chicken cutlet.. they happened to gif mi my favorite part of the chicken - the breast.. wahaha... wanted to treat Eddy but he push the $ back n we pushed back n forth until i finally decided to keep the $ reluctantly.. but dis time, i can feel dat it's not dat Eddy was paiseh or wad.. i tink he really wanted to help mi save my $.. haha.. after lunch, he left, n i dabao some food back for Laibao. his supervisor was back in the lab then, so we sneaked to the staircase there to eat. wahahha... ppl who came along tot we were smoking sia.. after a while Dunyu came along to smoke.. lolx.. it's like we were having a mini-picnic there.. more ppl whom we knew came along later on, n we left not long after.

progress was quite slow in the evening, as i've totally lost my C skills, n Laibao was having some trouble picking out wad to put in his code. but as we went along, tings got abit better bit by bit, until we managed to figure out roughly how to do the stuff. halfway thru, Laibao cracked a joke abt Yongjian's 'Green Pus' n we began laughing like hell.. until my eyes were literally wet.. n after dat Yongjian was like getting restless n began walking ard, n everytime he walked past us, we would tink of the joke.. wahahha.. we left at ard 9.. reliving those FYP days of mine.. i really loved it.. cuz.. staying in sku doing prj until nitetime is after all much better than going home to be nagged at or to see my family at war.. after leaving the sku, we went Bedok for Long John Silver before i made my way home. tired..

i can somehow foresee another moody season juz ahead of mi.. maybe next week.. juz warning everyone, so u wun find it abrupt if u see my mood change anytime soon..

Woke up by Eddy's sms dis morning, n looked out of the window to find it raining heavily.. woohoo.. today got improvement.. woke up at 11.30.. haha.. i slacked ard before starting to make my way to Eddy's hse to help him wif some project.

i usually dun haf the habit of carrying an umbrella, so i was drenched by the time i reached Eddy's hse. i was listening to mp3 in the rain but my earpiece remained dry cuz they were in my ears.. wahahah.. fortunately i still haf some of my clothes at Eddy's place, so i changed into my dry clothings the moment I reached there.. today is one of the rare occasions in which Eddy would turn on his aircon, so plus the rain, it was super-cozy in his room.. so cozy i wanted to sleep.. but couldn't cuz still got tings to do.

dunno whether it's bcuz godgrandma (or Eddy's grandma) very long time nv c mi or wad.. she couldn't stop cooking stuff for me throughout the whole afternoon, even though i've had my lunch.. the cold whether, together wif the cola i was constantly gulping down, made mi haf to go to the toilet damn often.. ard 3 times within an hour.. was trying to help out in his wireless development project.. it was quite fun overall, n the old-time feelings wif Eddy are back, but i was totally shagged out by evening-time. i stayed for dinner at his hse before we went off to bugis.

the moment we stepped into bugis, i was shivering non-stop cuz of the aircon blowing onto my drenched body.. though Eddy's mum FORCED us to bring umbrellas, i didn't really use it.. haha.. we basically walked ard, juz like yest, den we went to the arcade.. strange.. cuz Eddy normally wouldn't be interested in going to the arcade.. guess who we met there.. his sis, together wif her bf.. they were playing wif some touch-screen game whereby they were shown a plate of dishes, n they haf to pick out the ingredients for making the dish.. cute game.. before we left, i was enticed to play Para Para cuz damn long nv play liao. my skill getting from bad to worse liao.. maybe cuz of the cold weather, i was really hungry.. went to fourleaves to get some bread, while jessica n xianming left first.. still not full, so went long john, before going home together wif Eddy.. great day..

woke up damn late again.. 12.30 i tink.. as wif always, had to listen to some ringtone before i can get out of my bed.. went online to chat wif some frens, n waited for my mum to buy lunch back.. it was around 4pm when she did, n i was starved to death.. ok, she bought char siew rice n chee cheong fun.. more than wad i expected.. n i sort of gorged myself on the food..

at evening time, went bugis to meet Jackson. we went to watson's to look for some first-aid stuff.. got 15% discount.. haha.. following dat, we walked ard bugis.. went casio shop to c watches first.. tink now no more cheap protrek liao.. all 300+ or 400+.. when mine was onli $127 when i bought it 4 - 5 years ago, n it's still in gd working condition though badly scratched.. following dat we went m1 n singtel shop to help Laibao chk if his 6230 is out for display.. which it wasn't, apparently.. nxt we went to edge cuz i needed to help Laibao get a lanyard.. n some cd shop upstairs to c c ard.. they played one of my favorite songs again (Evelyn - Promise Me Extended Remix).. last time i went they oso played dat song.. haha.. juz like last time, we left after finishing listening to dat song.. before leaving bugis, we went billy bombers cuz i wanted to look for Ray, but i hurriedly left when a gal at the door welcomed mi n asked mi seats for how many.. before i left managed to catch a glimpse of Ray..

we went to subway at shaw tower for dinner.. Jackson ordered the 1-foot sandwich, along wif 2 cookies n a large drinks.. all part of a set.. den using the subway stamps acquired from his meal, i ordered a 6-inches sandwich along wif 3 cookies n a large drink, for only $4.50.. wad a deal.. but the guy at the counter got all confused when i asked him if the free sandwich could be any sandwich of my choice.. chicken n duck toking.. wahahha.. aniwae, i was damn full after the meal, n realized still got 3 cookies to gorge down.. but den again, the cookies were delicious...

i took 10 along wif Jackson till i reached east coast, den walked to bedok mrt station to get back $1 from my one-time mrt ticket. den walked home.. slacked around n watched waterboys. aniwae, read Laibao's blog, n i could feel myself in his shoes.. his despair abt his final year project.. cuz i oso can't find much info abt it on the net as well.. well.. everyone seems to be stressed up by their projects.. Eddy, Ray, Laibao, Jackson n Yongjian.. but i hope i can help everyone, in some way or another.. cuz dis might be my last chance.. ns awaits.. to be honest, the reason y i wanna help is partially cuz i miss my poly days.. n i wanna be involved in the projects to relive those days somehow.. trust mi, u'll miss it someday.. n partially, cuz i feel it's my responsibility as a fren to help..

i've taken a liking for Evanescence songs lately.. i've decided to put 'Taking Over Me' as the background music.. the song made me abit depressed but i still like it.. haha.. n i still run to Eddy when i'm depressed.. aniwae, here's the lyrics:

you don't remember me but i remember you
i lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
but who can decide what they dream?
and dream i do...

i believe in you
i'll give up everything just to find you
i have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me

have you forgotten all i know
and all we had?
you saw me mourning my love for you
and touched my hand
i knew you loved me then

i believe in you
i'll give up everything just to find you
i have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me

i look in the mirror and see your face
if i look deep enough
so many things inside that are just like you are taking over

i believe in you
i'll give up everything just to find you
i have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me

i believe in you
i'll give up everything just to find you
i have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me

Taking over me
Your Taking Over Me
Taking over me
Taking over me