Went back to Changi today along with Jackson, Kaiyong n Yankai, to tag along their 3-star assessment. The earlier part of the day went on fine - towing n rescues. However, the harder skills came after lunch, n some of them were having problems. In the end, after a tough try, we still failed.. All our morales were quite shattered the moment we heard that we need to come back for a reassessment. I felt equally disappointed as any of them. I've tried my best to try to help them, but somehow I juz fail. Didn't seem to be able to work out stuff. Felt so useless sia... Sorry Jackson, Yankai n Kaiyong..

Knowing that they are still going to try for another assessment, I've decided that I'll join them when they continue practising. I'm glad that nobody has given up yet.

After the session, Yankai left first, as he had to go back to prepare for his tests for the coming week. Kianheng left, n Jackson, Kaiyong n mi went to Tampines to have BK. I thought that all the 3 of us are the quiet kind, but we managed to joke n suan here suan there along the bus ride n during dinner. Wahaha..

Recently I keep having a feeling that some people are kind of avoiding me for some reasons I don't even know. Maybe I did/say someting wrong n didn't even realize it. For instance, I've tried to call Shufen n she didn't answer my call; the fone was juz left ringing. I tried to SMS her or send her an ICQ msg, but there was no reply either. N I'm pretty sure I'm having the correct hp number. I thought that maybe I was sensitive, but how come Aearon msg her she replied n I msged her at ard the same time she nv reply me?? I really dun noe the reason behind dat, n I hope that if I've did someting which irritated her she could at least tell me. Even if she nv forgive me, at least if she told me I would know my own mistakes n make sure it wouldn't happen again. N she's not the only one. Maybe there's some bad habit about me which is slowly making me lose my frens.. Or it could very well be bcuz of my past. Maybe she has somehow discovered sth abt my past. I've had a scary past, so scary dat I've told it to less than a handful of my frens, n even I fear it myself. Some 'frens' have left me bcuz of dat. Sometimes I juz wish I could tell others abt it, but God knows who's going to leave me after knowing it.