since i've not really written much for quite a long time, i'll write more today..

today went out wif Eddy for the whole day, literally from morning till nite.. n spent quite some quality time with him.. cuz he's going somewhere far for some kayak coaching stuff, n i won't get to see him for about a month starting tomorrow.. first we went to sim lim to purchase some computer stuff he's going to fix up for his uncle.. damn hard to find a good bargain, cuz each shop has its gimmicks n hidden costs.. one shop would sell the processor cheap cheap n sell the motherboard REALLY ex, n one would sell both at a moderately expensive price. after much walking ard n consideration, we decided to get everyting from one shop, in hope that we would get a discount.. but failed.. no discount.. haha.. but we bought the stuff aniwaez, cuz too tired n sian to walk ard animore.. Eddy's parents came n fetched us back to Eddy's place to put the stuff, den we took a bus down to paddle culture..

Eddy settled some of his stuff at paddle culture, n also proved me wrong abt some doubts i've had abt him.. that's our problem though, so i wun write it here.. we strolled along the beach to parkway, where we had our lunch.. i ate the chicken rice at the food court.. really alot of rice for $3.50.. n they gave me chicken drumstick, to my horror.. cuz i forgot to tell them i wan CHICKEN breast.. but since it was too late i decided to shuddup n eat it.. we juz sat there n chitchat after lunch for quite some time.. it was kind of quite an emotional chat, n my tears almost came out so i told Eddy to stop.. soon after that we left the food court n went to play pool with Gengyen n Jackson.. long time nv c them liao.. looks like both haf grown much taller.. n Jackson changed alot.. taller n much skinnier.. n 1st ting he said when he saw me was 'hey u've lost weight'.. well today i kept getting trashed.. played 2 games n could only get 2 balls in total.. really sucked.. but we onli played for a while cuz Eddy's family is meeting us for dinner, n we were running late.

after the game, we rushed down to suntec carrefoure to get some stuff for his trip, den hurried to raffles country club to meet up with Eddy's family.. his mum, dad, sis, sis's bf, grandma n grandpa.. seldom have dinner outside with his grandparents.. had quite a nice dinner at a posh cafe.. n talked alot to them.. after that Eddy's sis n her bf left, n i decided to go home on my own too, cuz it would be too many people squeezing into the car if i had gone home with them. so, Eddy saw me off at the club's entrance n i made my way home.

today's a very fulfiling day, cuz i find that i reached home having more faith in Eddy.. believing that ns wouldn't bring us apart.. cuz thru the conversation i realized that Eddy understands some tings.. he knows that he plays an important role in my life due to my lack of family warmth, n i sort of need him for kinship. n he knows he's the closest person to me.. having came to my hse n stayed overnight more often than anione else, he knows the situation in my home. he knows how torn n cold my family is, he has seen how we fight n quarrel wif his own eyes, etc.. since he knows all this, i'm sure he'll treasure this bond even more.. n i realized that he'd manage to prove me wrong everytime i have doubts about him.. n he always gives in even though i'm at fault.. so i'm gonna trust him even more.. the part that made me emotional.. was when he talked abt one day if we ever haf a major argument or someting.. cuz i was so damn scared when i try to tink of that.. i almost cried.. but i was wearing a cap so i juz hid my face in my cap.. n i told him to stop the topic.. i'm hoping for that not to ever happen.. i hope we won't have ani major arguments or fights in the future, but can't guarantee aniting..

the last paragraph was in a mess cuz i was getting emotional again while typing it.. but now i guess i can set my mind to rest n go to ns in peace.. after i fulfil a few tings more, that is.. for now, i guess i'll miss Eddy until he comes back. i guess i'm starting to really see Eddy as a true fren now.. n i feel quite honored i'm the only one who's going to see Eddy off tomorrow..

so after he leaves.. there're still quite some tings to keep me occupied.. chalet, go accompany Aearon cuz he can't go out, go solo hike, etc.. but time is still going to be slow until he returns..