Life has been damn sucky for me lately.. Feeling down all the way especially after knowing my enlistment date, n still being unable to make any improvement for my napfa. Struggling wif myself mentally n emotionally, n having a warfare going on right in my mind. There are juz some stuff I can't accomplish in time.. N i don't even think i can go into ns with a peaceful mind. Even the tots of suicide crossed my mind, but i've decided to put it off at least while i still haf some time left (don't ever talk to me about this; i won't bother to answer.. i haven made a decision yet anyway). I have never been depressed for this long until i received the letter.. cuz everything seems to be coming to an end. no time.