The Nitemare Is Back

I yelped in pain once again as the kick was delivered onto my shoulder. Following dat, another few blows landed on all parts of my body simultaneously. I could not scream dis time. My breath was already running short from my previous screams. I was lying curled up on the floor, cover not with garments, but with only wounds, bruises n my own blood. My lips were cracked and white due to dehydration.

"As long as u're willing to lay down ur life for him, u're bound to be tortured," said a low voice from nowhere. I slowly looked up, and thru my blurred vision was a black shadow blocking the light behind him. My body was getting numb, and I was gradually losing tune with the environment. It felt like I was going to leave the world any moment, but I didn't bother to resist. After that, all I could feel was a wave of strong emotions sweeping thru n choking my throat. I slowly opened my eyes, finding myself in my own room, looking back at reality thru the few drops of tears in my eyes.

"What is this all about?", you may ask. Ok, this is the nitemare I've been having for the 4th or 5th time. I'd juz find myself waking up in the morning, with my eyes wet. That dream might be trying to tell me that continuing to gif my loyalty to a certain person might cause myself pain n to suffer in the long run. Quite true, I've began to feel dis, dat's why I had the nitemares. I've changed myself too much, and lost myself for this person. He has disappointed me, n maybe even used me - I don't know. But bringing myself to heck-care him feels equally hurting as well. Plus, I've already made a promise.