Some Crap About My Frenship With Eddy

Since the nitemare I've had, I've been pondering.. Should I continue to hold on to Eddy as my best fren, or shd I juz heck-care him? With his heck-care, selfish attitude in terms of frens, I really felt that it wasn't worth it after all. He seldom gave encouragement or support whenever I'm down. He never really showed that he treasures the frenship. "If lose contact den lose contact loh.. I can always make new frens." That phrase which he said still hurts me badly whenever I tink about it.

However, on the other hand, both of us have gone through alot of experiences together, with some rather rare memories which can't be found elsewhere. Yes, lots and lots of happy memories. And we know each other like the back of our palms. This makes giving up hope on this frenship a pitiful thing.

Deep inside, it feels so painful whenever I consider treating him as juz a normal fren instead of the best fren dat's wif me all this time. I've worked hard to build the frenship up to what it is today. I've put in all the effort I can to earn his trust in me. If I give up, my efforts would be wasted, and the experiences we've had would juz become faded memories. After some consideration n encouragement from Jackson, another solution came. Why not I hold on and try to change him instead.. Let him see what true frenship is all about. I still have the energy to hold on, n the determination to go on. Yeah, determination.. The attribute that works wonders.. Hopefully I can touch him someday, by showing him that he's someone I really care about. Yeah, someday...

Let's hope someone will show me dat they care about me too...

N jackson.. u rock~.. =P wahahah..

But I'd like to be a hero for you, to reach a hand out to you when you stumble or fall - Hero (Mr. Children)