Thinking of Someone Whom I Shouldn't

Ya, Mervyn (not Mervyn Teo la!!) made use of me. He borrowed money from me and never returned it. He wanted me to lend him more money and he got pissed off just because I refused to. He wanted to sign up for a handphone plan under my name and when I refused, he stopped contacting me totally. But dunno y, I still tink about him. How is he doing? What's his new number? I wish I can regain contact with him, and sit around, drink and chat just like before, but why am I feeling this way towards this kind of ppl? Hmm.. maybe becuz I feel damn bad I refused to help him and suspect him instead. Or maybe my heart too soft. But after all he didn't earn my trust. Dunno la, miss den miss loh.. wad to do... Let's hope I will bump into him one day, so I can at least ask 'How are you bro?'